Chapter 47 - We All Broke Ourselves (1/2)

Doubt...

It's a very complicated word. We all have doubts. Doubts in ourselves. Doubts about our abilities. Doubts about our relationships. There is doubt everywhere around us.

We have caged ourselves, our creativity, and our passions between the shafts of the doubt.

A single word, doubt. It destroys us.

There is a very peculiar thing about doubt; once it's seed makes a place in a person's mind. There is no way to get it out. It doesn't even need the water of evidence to sprout. It just grows on its own. And keeps growing on and on and on...

When Xu Mey first started out on this journey of revenge, she was filled with doubts. She had no confidence in herself. The timid, weak, and unapproachable girl. She was someone who always avoided standing in front of the mirror.

She was scared of her own reflection. Why? Because she believed that the reflection in that mirror always asked her questions, she had no answer of.

She had the talent but no conviction. She asked back then, "What if I fell?"

Back then her sensei was standing beside her. That person brought her before a mirror and made her look at her own reflection. "Make the mirror your best friend. And, you'll never be alone again..." Was the reply she heard in that familiar calm yet alluring voice. "If you fell, just stand in front of this mirror. And your reflection will tell you how to stand back again."

"The mirror only tells the truth, Sensei. It'll only criticize me on my failure like it always does." Xu Mey was exasperated.

"If you'll have the ability to accept that criticism, you'll be able to stand back up. Even taller than before. Stronger than before." Those brown eyes looked into her own black ones. "Don't hide from the truth. Don't hide from criticism. And most importantly, don't hide from the mirror. It's true that people like to hide behind the mirrors of lies and we wish that those around us were like glass; transparent. But when it comes to us, we need to face that reflection of reality in the mirror."

Xu Mey fell into another dilemma back then. But that moment and those words made her wish to grow out of her cocoon of self-doubt. She'll never be able to forget the words her sensei told her at the end:

"Some people like to escape the reality.

Some people like to face reality.

But...

No one likes to embrace reality..."

The doubt, the nagging question in her mind that frustrated her from the morning was still not answered. Even until the afternoon, she had no idea what to do?

Li Qiao was right that she needed to hear her heart. But it wasn't as easy as he made it sound like.

There was only one person who could answer her questions. She picked up her phone and typed a single sentence. "What if he broke me?"

She knew she didn't have to type the unnecessary details. That person didn't need her words to know what's running in her mind. But then again, that person didn't need to hear words from anyone to know about their personality or thought.

She waited for 2 minutes before the reply came. It read: "At least once in our life, we all broke ourselves for the sake of someone else."