~： Fanwai 2 Courage One (thanks to the leader infinityykz) (1/2)
It is said that when Chen Fan's parents named him this name, they hoped that he could move forward bravely like a sail on the sea.
However, Chen Fan felt that he did not match the name at all. He felt that he should be called Chen Fan. During the first sixteen years of his life, he had been ordinary and ordinary. He was the best in the class all the way from kindergarten to junior high school. The ordinary child is not bad at school, and his grades belong to the middle and lower reaches of the class.
They are not the key seedlings that are praised by the teacher every day, but they are not so bad that they have to be invited to parents in two days. Naturally, they did not degenerate into the kind of fighting all day long, full of loyalty and loyalty. The little girl thinks it's handsome, a bad boy who can secrete hormones.
In addition, there are no sports and talent projects that can be obtained, and his appearance is even more ordinary. He feels like the kind of passerby who is purely used to fill the numbers in anime, and catches up with the painter who wants to be lazy or make When the funding for the team is insufficient, even the facial features are too lazy to paint, and just put a whiteboard there to fool the audience, which is also called stream of consciousness. (Here is the supervisor of Kunihiko Kihara~)
In addition, the most important thing is that Chen Fan feels that he has never been brave since childhood, especially that happened a few days ago.
After entering high school, his life has hardly changed from before. Although he has changed to a new school and a group of new classmates and teachers, he is still playing his role as a passerby conscientiously in order to make himself look better. Being in a group, trying to echo every word of those around him, even if he didn't think so in his heart.
Talk to everyone about the same sports game, pretend to be a fan of a popular team, even if he doesn’t like that team, and talk enthusiastically about which female character in the movie animation looks bigger. Listen to the boys around There were bursts of weird laughter, even though he thought it was not very polite.
Every time he talked about something similar, he would look nervously at the short-haired girl at the opposite table, afraid that the other person would be disappointed when he heard what he said.
But in fact, Chen Fan himself knows that short-haired girls don’t care what he says, just like the heroine in anime doesn’t care if the passerby who happens to be in the same frame as her has facial features on her face.
However, maybe every little transparent heart who has a crush on his heart has a trace of luck, and feels that as long as he has not spoken those four words and is not explicitly rejected by the other party, then it is still possible, so even if it is three-way broken , The hero counts down, there is only one polished crystal left in the entire base, but he stubbornly refuses to play GG in the chat bar.
Chen Fan sometimes feels that he is really stupid who is not able to get better. He is planning to confess to the big bet and go to confess tomorrow. Whether he succeeds or fails, he will at least get a result, even if it is. Even if you die, you can die clearly. Besides, isn't there a one in ten thousand chance of living?
But he prepared a love letter, and he rehearsed in the mirror what he had to say when he confessed countless times. He even thought about how to let the other party stay after school, but he still didn't have the courage to take that last step.
Every time something comes, he will tell himself, let’s go tomorrow, because for passers-by, tomorrow is always the best time, but from junior high school to high school, and then wait for the university in the future, what he was waiting for Tomorrow will never come...