Chapter 78 (1/2)

I ran down the corridor. I moved my body forward, keeping to rhythm, each step a leap. I ran past a worried maid who yelled after me ‘That’s dangerous- young miss!’ but that wasn’t enough to stop me.

Feeling this way, I was helpless.

Inside my chest pathetic thoughts spun around and round. Emotions bubbling up with no outlet just like when I hid from Charles.

When I thought about that time, the solution came easily.

I just need to say it. I just need to listen. I just need to clearly say my thoughts. All the things I’ve kept in my heart, I just have to throw them out there, and maybe they will catch them.

However, I’m not that confident I can actually carry it out.

“Urgh……!”

I want to let out a loud scream. But I scolded myself for trying to take such an easy way out. Another part of me violently responded, ‘then what else should I do then’.

Suppressing all the chaotic thoughts as they were too much, I arrived at Michelie’s room. Without even pausing to knock, I threw open the door.

Keeping my momentum I ran and hugged my little sister who has been reading quietly until now.

‘Michelie!”

“Wha- Big Sister?”

Michelie was surprised at my attack, but didn’t dislike it in the slightest. Without resisting my hug at all, she just tilted her head slightly, as if this was the normal hug.

“All of a sudden, what’s wrong?”

“Mm. Just give me a sec.”

I held my cute little sister as close as I could for a moment. Feeling Michelie’s warmth, my heart calmed a little.

For a moment I dreamed I could stay here forever, but today that was no good. Today I didn’t come here to be healed by Michelie.

That’s why I reluctantly pulled away from our embrace, I earnestly looked into Michelie blue eyes.

“Michelie. Please scold this useless older sister.”

“Eh? All of a sudden, what’s wrong Big Sister?”

In response to my serious request, the same words she had said when I first jumped on her, now had a slightly different meaning.

Michelie’s blank look, was the face of someone who had absolutely no idea what was going on around her. Certainly, most people would be shocked, being asked such a thing out of the blue. But, I really wanted Michelie to do this for me.

“It’s fine so, without asking why, just scold this no good sister of yours. With the strongest words you have, push me forward!”

I was currently driven by the intense urge to be punished. So I wanted to be scolded. I had thought of asking Father, but when Father admonishes me I just automatically rebel, so I scraped that plan.

Maybe if Michelie sent me a ‘tsk!’ my feelings would calm down. If my most beloved sister could scrape out my weak self, then with all my power I can challenge Mariwa.

“Please Michelie.”

“Um well….okay” I guess I understand, for now anyway.”

Michelie was a child who well understood people’s emotions. Even without knowing all the details, she understood my enthusiasm. Taking a step back, when Michelie looked into my eyes she didn’t look at all confused.

“Big Sister.”

As she said my name gently Michelie reached her hand towards my head.

Aaah. I hadn’t expected her to go for a beating straight off. But it was convenient. If it was hit like how mariwa does, surely my body would wake up.