Chapter 28 (1/2)

Translator: Jawbrie

I try to think a little deeper about what is happening in Christina’s heart. I begin to analyze myself with objectivity. This was something that I had decided was necessary for the present and for the future.

Why was I so annoyed just because Mishuli and Leon were talking?

It was something similar to the complex emotion a father might feel when his daughter leaves to be married. It was an emotion of a desire to possess that came from jealousy. My conviction that I was the closest to Mishuli, that I was family and had seen her grow. The desire to possess had poured out from this pride I felt.

But, if that were true, then it was wrong for me to feel this way.

I should have been happy when I witnessed that scene. Mishuli’s world had been broadened. I needed to be happy that she was being prepared to one day leave me. The reason that I could not do this was a selfishness not becoming of a genius and also immaturity.

And so I decided on one thing.

“I think that I too, will distance myself a little.”

I was in the third Calibrachoa daughter’s room. There, I and Surfania faced each other with a board game set up between us.

On the other side, Surfania was narrowing her eyebrows after seeing my last move. The tide of the battle was currently even. But my last move had ever so slightly tipped the balance into her favor. Surfania caught this and her eyes gleamed brightly.

“…You being so fond of your sister is nothing new. But you really think you will succeed in separating from her?”

“I will. Indeed, I am very fond of Mishuli, but it is not as if I want to keep her to myself either.”

She made her move carefully after a moment of consideration. I pretended to take my time and slowly made my move. With that I was at an even further disadvantage, Surfania’s expression brightened.

“Oh, is that really so? I had thought that you two were locked up in your own little world, trying to be happy.”

“My only wish is to make Mishuli happy. I want her to always be smiling. I want her life to be full of happiness. Until now, I hadn’t been ready to act as a foundation to make that happen.”

Surfania’s voice bounced with delight as the board showed her clear advantage. I pretended to be annoyed by this as I slammed a piece on to the board with more force than was necessary. Surfania smirked at this obviously poor move.

“Part of me had put my own happiness as equal with hers. Maybe I had become dependant on her without noticing it. I had poured so much love into her, and it drew out a shameful desire to have her look only at me. And so this jealousy is born from the need to possess.”

“Fu fufufu. Is that so. Well, you’ve always been rather pathetic. I wouldn’t worry about it.”

“…I can’t refute you today.

Surfania sounded very pleased, this was the first time she was in a superior position to me in the game.