Chapter 189 (1/2)

Lu Ziming doesn't want to stay in the closed space for a second now. Endless loneliness and loneliness, accompanied by endless emptiness, are not only destroying his body, but also killing his will.

Those who have no hope will despair; People who have no future will be crazy; People who don't have tomorrow will fear. He has always thought that he has been very strong, experienced countless setbacks and tasted the sadness of the world, but these are not worth mentioning compared with now.

He has been wandering in the period of despair for many times. Maybe the next minute, the next second, his spirit will collapse, his body torn by emptiness will lose the reason of people's hearts and do things he can't think of.

No one wants to die. As long as there is a glimmer of hope, they will not choose to die. Death is the last helpless choice. At the end of life, the remembrance of the world will be extinguished like a candle burning all the lamp oil.

Death is not a painful decision for desperate people. On the contrary, it is extremely difficult for those who survive from despair.

When despair came, he raised his dagger to his chest. With a little force, the sharp dagger would stab into his heart. But he didn't stab in. He was not afraid of death, and even expected the shadow of death to come. Living is the greatest pain.

”Live, only live can there be hope!”

There was always a voice in his ear when he lost his courage. He even felt that it was the voice from heaven and the call from the depths of his heart. It was like his mother's kind eyes staring at himself, pulling him back from despair again and again.

He gave himself countless reasons to live. The world is big and he hasn't really seen the world; Life is wonderful, life should not wither at the beginning; He has not fulfilled his parents' expectations. He is even sorry that his parents gave his body and did not continue his parents' blood.

Colorful fruit and colorful fish had already eaten like chewing wax. He thought of going on a hunger strike, but when his parents' eager eyes appeared in his mind, he shrank, ”live, no matter how hard it is!”

Although sword Qi can break the mirror, can you get out of the closed space after breaking the mirror? He doesn't know and doesn't want to know. This is the only reason why he can live... To support him. He told himself again and again in his heart that he would get out of trouble after breaking the mirror, and he would.

No if!

The broken mirror needs energy support, and the energy comes from the weak environment wall. Even if you swallow the energy of the environment wall without sleep every day, it will take at least 3 months. If you want to recover the energy in the body, it will take at least half a year. He is not sure that the energy reserve for three months can break all the boundary walls. At the same time, after breaking the boundary walls, he can't do without energy reserve in his body. He doesn't know what he will encounter after going out of the closed space. He dare not gamble again.

The cautious character he has developed over the years makes him never dare to gamble on uncertain things. He doesn't like gambling, but now he has no choice. Since there is no choice, it is actually a choice. Some people say that life is a non-stop choice, while others say that life is a gamble. If you win, the scenery is infinitely good, and if you lose, start all over again.

Maybe not looking back!

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Under the dark sky, there is an endless prairie. You can't see the end. A slowly flowing river divides the green grassland into two parts like a ribbon, winding eastward into the sea.