Chapter 420 - I will let you go (2/2)

Daichi laughed, ”So harsh my wife,” he kissed behind her neck.

Daichi is quite the romantic. His actions made up for the lack of affectionate moments between her and her first husband. Orthez shuddered when his hands trailed against her shirt. Due to the complicated clothing she wore though, Daichi struggled to get of causing her to chuckle. She turned around, intending to tease him. But when she saw the state of his face, she frowned.

”Daichi,” Orthez said slowly. How will she lecture him this time? Why does he keep doing this? She brushed her hands across his cheeks. ”You don't have to harm yourself to protect the kids. That's my role as the Queen.”

”Then, can I get hurt trying to defend you?”

At that comment Orthez didn't say a word, and just kissed him. Even now, she can't do anything but this. She can't tell him she loves him properly.

.....

After Daichi left her, Orthez felt even worse than she did earlier. Lately, she feels so guilty whenever she looks at him. She does love him a great deal, but why is it so difficult for her to express her feelings?

”Mother?” a quiet voice mumbled.

Orthez blinked when she saw her daughter peeking through the door way, ”Lyn..”

”Rhys said he was going to talk to you, I was worried so...”

”He didn't harm me.”

A relieved sigh escaped Lyn's lips, but then she shifted her gaze down onto the ground. Orthez walked over and pulled Lyn into her arms. ”I've never held you like this before, but like earlier it felt familiar to me.”

”Mother...”

”I will say it again, I'm very sorry Lyn for everything. You've had to suffer so much because of me.”

At that comment tears welled up in the girls eyes. ”It was okay, I was fine. I was lonely, but I was okay. You were only protecting me.”

”Silly child, do not act so strong when you want to break down. Holding it in is bad for you.”

For the next few minutes, they didn't speak. But simply holding her child was more than enough for her. How many years did she long to hold this girl? Orthez wanted to so many times, to hold her child - the child of the second man she loved. But, when she saw that mark. Orthez knew the girl's life wouldn't be an easy one. She had to take drastic measures, that's why she walked away like that. This action of hers caused people to misunderstand.

Hearing a knock on the door, Orthez looked up and saw that Rhys boy from earlier.

”Rhys? Why did you wait...”

He wrapped his cloak around her, ”I didn't wait, it was a coincidence.”

Lyn laughed, ”Was it?”

”It was, let's go back. It's cold here.”

'Those two,' Orthez gaze softened when she recalled something. 'Remind her of that guy and herself.' The first man she loved so deeply. She looked towards the window. So many years have passed, but she has yet to truly forget. Daichi gave her so much warmth and comfort, she fell in love with him, there is no doubt there. But sometimes when she watches Lyn and Rhys, she recalls those times. The times she can no longer return too.