Chapter 274 - Stop me (1/2)

He knew? He knew about it. How come he said nothing before? Why, why did he remain with her despite knowing? Why did he put up with so much of her selfishness? No, why is she so surprised? Ever since they got engaged, Allen has sacrificed so much for her. She's the selfish one, not him.

”Leaving Lyn in your hands, I've always been uneasy, and even now, I still am. She broke down crying because she couldn't do anything to help you. In the first place for Lyn it has always been about you, so you don't have to worry about anything happen. Cure your addiction first before you properly confess to her,” Allen stood up and slipped on his coat on and turned to her, ”Take care.”

With those words said Allen left, Kazuya's hands slip away from her waist, and he headed right to the bathroom. Realizing what he was about to do, she immediately hugged him from the back. ”Lyn. Lock yourself in the room at the back and don't come out. You can rest assured since even I can't break through seal.”

”No!” If she left him alone now, what would happen to him?

”I'm going crazy; I'll really do something to you.”

”No. I can't leave you. If that will ease your loneliness, you can do whatever you want to me. I can't leave you alone when you're in so much pain.” Her sentence fell short when he pushed her on the couch, his body hovering over her.

”Lyn. Stop me. Stop me now. I could kill somebody. .”

Lyn shook her head as she wrapped her arms around him, ”You can do what you want. Please don't continue hurting yourself. If my presence can ease your pain, then you go ahead.”

…

”Kazuya?” she murmurs, through the darkness of the room. Lyn didn't hear an automatic response, and panicked. 'He didn't leave did he?' She hears storing, and the lights flickered on. Lyn looked over, Kazuya was still beside her. He wore a complicated look on his race.

”Sorry. Sorry. I shouldn't have done that. Lyn, I'm really sorry.”

Lyn shook her head, ”You don't have to make that face. I'm alright. It's really okay, as long as you're better now.”

Kazuya shifted their position, so they were both sitting down as he buried his head in her chest, she fingers his maroon locks. ”Good boy. I should have given you that medicine earlier. However, seeing you in pain, I couldn't help but break down. It's laughable, isn't it?”

It's laughable, back then and even now. All she can ever do is cause the people she cares about pain. Someone like her does not deserve love. That is something she has always known.

”Yeah, it is. But in the first place, human beings are selfish creatures. That's why, even though this may look selfish in the eyes of others. It's fine for us to remain this way.”

Lyn leaned into his hold, and Kazuya paused, ”Is it okay?”

”Yes, I love you, and I trust you.” Because she did, didn't she? Despite all the pain she felt whenever things went wrong between them.

..

Lyn quickly got dressed and found Kazuya by the balcony a cup in his hands. Lyn stares the drink up and down before nodding as she took a seat opposite him. Recalling the events that happened earlier though, she feels the tears spilling from her eyes again.

”Kazuya, what should I do to find happiness like normal people?”

”Don't ask me such a difficult question I'm not the soothing type after all. Ask your brother, instead.” Lyn looked at him in complete disbelief, ”He would answer you like this; you should spare a thought for the other person's happiness.”

It's scary how spot on that impersonation is.

”But Lyn, you don't have to worry about this. Happiness is something that's supposed to come naturally. I can't say for sure when it will come. However, it will happen.”

Lyn looked over at him, ”I'm happy when we are together.”