Chapter 230 - All we can do is shoulder the pain (2/2)

”You can't use both?”

Kazuya paused but nodded, ”Well, I'm not sure about my dual-wielding skills. But I can give it a shot.”

”Say Kazuya, you're really good at magic and using weapons. Did you train by yourself?”

”Yeah,” Kazuya smiled, ”But, there is no need for you to compare yourself to me. I'm supposedly a genius,” he joked.

A genius, huh? That's just somebody who is a fast learner, somebody who only has to look at things at a glance to understand what's written. Lyn doesn't understand why whenever Kazuya mentions it, he gets such a dark look on his face. Lyn reached over and touched his cheeks, ”Will you feel better if you touch me?”

Kazuya's cheeks turned red, ”Woah... I didn't think you'd...”

Lyn realized what she just said and moved her hand away, ”D--don't flatter yourself. I thought you'd feel more comfortable,” she paused. 'Gah, why does she keep saying such misleading sounding sentences?' Ever since that time Kazuya held her, she's been thinking such strange thoughts.

Kazuya wrapped his arms around her, ”I don't mind, whatever you want. Just tell me.”

”K--Kazuya...”

How does she tell him how happy she was that day? Even now, she can't describe it in words.

”Is it really okay? Ever since then, I've wanted nothing more than to hold you in my arms every day, but the two of us are still young. I don't want you to regret anything. I want you to desire me from the very bottom of your heart.”

Is Kazuya trying to say that because they are still young, that she would change her mind in the future? Lyn frowned, 'This guy is truly an idiot,' she thought. He's always belittling himself, always looking down on himself. Is there something she can do for him? The thing she just suggested will most likely work if it were for Rhys. But for Kazuya? What can she do for this person that has brought her so much joy and happiness in her life?

Lyn felt Kazuya gently caress her cheeks, ”Do you want to touch me, Kazuya?”

”Well, mmm. I wonder if this is the right time for it, though.”

Lyn blinked, ”There is a right and wrong time?”

”We really should take this slow if you're still asking such questions.”

”Uh, that's not it…”

Kazuya ran his hand through his hair, ”With you, I really want to treasure every moment we spent together. I don't want any superficial things to get in the way.”

Come to think of it; he said such words to her, didn't he? Not too long after they first met Kazuya said it to her, he said that he would treasure her. Even now those words are foreign to her, but Lyn knew despite all the mess lately - he has kept his word this entire time. Kazuya has been treasuring her, but what about her? What has she done for him? Just thinking about it upsets her greatly, but if she were to talk to Kazuya about this. Surely he would be the one consoling her again, that's why it's better if she just kept it to herself.

Lyn shook her head, ”Its nothing.”

Kazuya gave her a weak smile like he understood what she was thinking and pulled her into his arms. For now, this is enough.