Chapter 226 - What we cant obtain (1/2)
He was jealous of Lyn, Kazuya didn't know when these ugly feelings started to emerge. But before he knew it, he was jealous of her. Jealous of what people may ask. But only those who don't know Lyn would think of it that way. Lyn maybe a caged bird, but even then she is a lot freer than everybody else in the Empire.
At his age, he was using his knowledge to his advantage. That was what made him feel frustrated, because this knowledge is useless.
After he finished cleaning, Kazuya returned to the desk and with no mood to study, leaned on the chair. A sense of failure and inferiority mixed together and created a feeling that he couldn't describe with words. He couldn't think of a way to let it out, yet he didn't want to be troubled about it on his own. Not that he couldn't imagine it. It was just revolting to even think about it.
His hesitation stayed with him and only became worse and worse. The negative feeling stuck to every part of his body like glue. While finding a way to escape it, he found the letter in his bag.
The scent of the letter was different, indicating that it came from a faraway place.
”Kazuya? Are you looking at a love letter?”
Kazuya quickly put the letter away and stood up. He made his way back over to Lyn, who was sat on the bed with puffed cheeks. She's cute.. Kazuya cupped her cheeks, ”Just some work stuff,” he murmured. Though he doesn't know who would send him a letter in this place, it's nobody from his team, since they use different means for communication.
”... I didn't want to be a Princess,” Lyn suddenly whispered. ”I didn't want to have this power.”
Kazuya said nothing at first. What could he say to her?
After carefully considering it, he speaks up, ”Since people cannot obtain what the power they want, all we can do is shoulder the destiny we've been given.”
”Can we not change it?”
”That depends on the individual.”
”Then, I'll change yours.”
Isn't this where she is supposed to say she will change her situation? ”Sleep my Lyn.”
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3:00am - Courtyard-
Once he was sure Lyn was asleep, Kazuya made his way outside. Eventually, his frustration vanished. Kazuya was never one to foster negative thoughts for too long. But after thinking such negative thoughts, he felt mentally drained.
He slumped on a wooden bench which faced a large circular water fountain. The water fountain was grand, as was everything else in the palace courtyard. They decorated the water fountain with small animals that held a bowl of water.
Such designs always made Kazuya curious. At the tip of the fountain, a single eagle was raising its wing outwards. In the language of birds - and well in general, it looks like the bird is preparing to take flight. Surrounded by the bird and the first bowl were other animal designs. Wolves, the stone eyes and ears carved so deeply that whoever looked over would get frightened — the eyes of a beast hunting for its prey.
'How life-like,' Kazuya thought. It's almost like it's real. Every Empire has its secrets, so Kazuya wouldn't be surprised if it weren't a stone statue. The statue that had the largest bowl were the heads of four huge lions. It really looks real. Since it's a statue from the inner courtyard of the main palace... Kazuya was curious, but he was too lazy to get up.
'It looks like they are guarding something.”
Perhaps they were guarding the fountain itself? His thoughts drifted off as his gaze fell on the fountain that stood before him. It was as if he were attempting to solve a riddle to a riddle-less mystery. A puzzle that did not exist.
Why did he leave Lyn's side only to sit out here all confused? His Lyn, whenever he thought of the girl. Different types of feelings would emerge. But one thing was for sure; he loves her. His feelings for her keep growing.
”What am I protecting?” he asked carelessly aloud.