Chapter 149 - None of that matters (2/2)

Kazuya deeply sighed, ”Well that's a very long story, let's just say I trust him and that's why I thought you'd be okay. No matter what happens, I didn't think he would hurt you,” he gently brushed his hand across her cheek. Kazuya's hand is devoid of it's usual warmth, being locked up here his hands are cold. But even then, Lyn leaned into his palm, ”I'll protect you, but there's a limit to what I can do. Lyn, from now onwards you'll have to train more seriously.”

”Will you teach me?” She doesn't think it's possible to train with Rhys anymore.

”Lyn, why don't you get your mentor to teach you? He taught you before, right?”

Why is he so reluctant to teach her? Lyn thought it was strange from the very beginning. It's not like Kazuya has a problem teaching others. She saw him teach the soldiers back in the castle; he's a good teacher. A lot better than Rhys, anyway. But he seems to be reluctant to teach her.

Still, ”You'll always be my side, and accept me?”

”Yeah. No matter what.”

But she's done some terrible things. While it was under the guise that she would be using her powers to help the people and for training. Lyn didn't like to use them. The magic, the power in her hands - it's something far too deadly. Something that should not exist in this world. It's because she had that mindset, that Lyn closed off her heart completely. Even when her surroundings got brighter, the general, Pupillam, Gabrielle, then later Kazuya and Rhys. Even when her social circle started to expand, Lyn still hesitated to open up her heart to anybody.

However, her gaze fell on Kazuya, 'He's so sure of himself,' Lyn thought. What makes him so confident? Anybody can say the words he just said to her now. Indeed, how many times has she heard people say such sweet, sugar-coated words? Even those with innocent and foolish-looking faces have said those words to her before.

”Kazuya, what am I to you? A tool? Or..”

Kazuya's eyes widened.

”Please tell me, I'm very confused,” Lyn said as she looked down at the ground, ”You tell me you love me, but then avoid me. Whenever we get closer, you remind me that were enemies and that I shouldn't get any closer. You even leave me be with other guys. Kazuya, I don't understand. What am I to you?”

It was a small outburst. But, Lyn could no longer contain these emotions. For the longest time, she held all of this back. Now that she has the opportunity to tell him these things. Lyn will make sure she tells him everything, ”I, want to be with you all the time. That's all I ever wanted from you. But, Kazuya is that not enough?”

She knew that when this relationship started, it would come with its own set of problems. But Lyn thought it would be fine. No matter what happens, they could overcome everything together. However, more and more problems popped up. Problems she didn't know how to deal with.

”To me, your..”

”Necessary as a tool?”

Kazuya frantically shook his head, ”Aargh geez, what is it with you all of a sudden?”

”I'm sorry,” Lyn apologized, ”I know I'm acting strange Kazuya. But I just want to know.”

”You have the right to know, that's not why I'm irritated,” Kazuya trailed off and deeply sighed, Lyn, I'm not a mind reader. Even if I understand you well, there are things I won't know until you tell me.”

”Oh,” Lyn said slowly. He does make a point there unless she says it. How is Kazuya supposed to guess?

Kazuya squeezed her hand, ”So? What else do you want to say? Tell me everything.”

”Kazuya, answer my question first.”

At that comment, Lyn noticed that his calm demeanor had faded, and his cheeks had turned red. Wh--what? Why does he look embarrassed for? It's not like she said anything to make Kazuya this embarrassed. Unless it's because of her question? What is she to him...and it makes him embarrassed. It was easy to figure out what Kazuya was thinking. But that didn't make it easier for her.

Did she just ask a stupid question?