Chapter 116 - A Good Girl? (1/2)
”Then, I suppose it is natural that you fell in love with him,” Lyn muttered. For the young Beth, Rhys must have been her knight in shining armor. Her savor, just like she feels towards Kazuya. Lyn has always kept this to herself, though. Besides, Kazuya is not the knight and shining armor type, so she knew better than to make a fool out of herself and tell him that.
As Lyn pondered on these thoughts, she did not notice that Beth had turned quiet, until she hears a sudden, ”Impossible,” and yelp from the woman.
Lyn snapped out of it and looked at Beth, the girl's whole face had turned a brighter shade of red than her cheeks earlier. Could it be, ”You didn't notice?”
Beth coughed, ”Rhys, and I are not like that Lady Lyn. We've always had a kind of no strings attached relationship with each other.”
But isn't that strange? Lyn could tell how close the two were, and how Beth seemed to get jealous whenever Rhys spent more time with her. She's no expert in romance, but even Lyn could tell when a person was in love. That's why Lyn wondered about Rhys. How come she didn't notice? Or maybe she can only tell when it came to her fellow females.
”Would it really be that weird? If you fell in love with Rhys?” Beth is surely already in love with Rhys. But the woman clearly does not know.
”Lady Lyn, with all due respect, are you only doing this because you know Rhys has feelings for you?”
Lyn flushed red, ”T—that is not it.”
Beth did not look convinced, and Lyn wasn't sure either. Why did she say those words out loud? Even if Lyn thought that way, there was no reason for her to say it out loud. She ought to have just kept it to herself. ”Does everybody know about it? About, Rhys feelings?”
”Huh, yeah? They knew.”
So everybody knew about it.
”Lady Lyn, do you really not like Rhys at all?”
Eh, ”Why are you asking?”
Beth paused, ”It's just, pardon me if I'm wrong. But I think you talk more naturally when you're with him.”
She talks more naturally when she is with Rhys? Lyn was about to comment that Beth was wrong when she recalled something Kazuya said to her. Now that she thought about it, didn't Kazuya say something similar? About her feeling restrained around him? Lyn has never thought that whenever she is with Kazuya, she can relax and no longer keep up a facade.
When she is with Rhys, she is always stressed out and angry. How is that natural? Is it because she doesn't get mad when she is with Kazuya?
Beth must have noticed her troubled look since she sighed, ”Well, your only sixteen. Nobody expects you to have a serious relationship now. Your elite on top of that.”
That's true; people do not take relationsh.i.p.s in this day and age -- even marriages, let alone this boyfriend and girlfriend thing.
”Maybe it's like that; I don't understand relationsh.i.p.s very well. No,” Lyn trailed off, ”Matters of the heart to be exact,” she stopped walking up the steps and turned to the slop, ”You see, the thing is even after things got better for me and the servants stopped picking on me. My loneliness remained. I met Pupillam, and General acted more like a father figure to me. I made friends with Gabrielle. Things got better, but I always felt lonely.”
She didn't understand why that was. How could a person like her who never knew the warmth of others feel lonely? What is loneliness, what is love, Lyn closed her eyes, ”I don't know whether it's okay for me to stay by Kazuya's side when I'm like this? But, all I know is. It's very warm beside him. When I'm with him, I feel a joy and safety I haven't in years.”