215 figh (1/2)

Do you know what the Funny thing is, it's that they took everything that I fight for

Then they looked at me ironically and they said to me

'Come on, fight'

'Come on, be the hero you wanted to be'

I don't want to be a hero anymore. I just want to live I just want to survive

I want to see the sun again

I want to see the glass half full again

Celine was still crying after the monsters left

We came out from under the bodies

As I'm looking at the body of Rami and his sister

I felt like my heart was being destroyed inside

But I didn't know why the feeling felt fiemmiler

And I didn't react much

I took their body and put it in a far corner

With a very cold look in my eyes

Everyone single civilian has been eliminated

There are no people here but me and Celine

Celine wiped her tears with her hand and asked me while looking at me with empty eyes

”What are we gonna do now? We're trapped”

”We will survive no matter what.”

She looked at me angry and said

”Will you also let me die and watch me scream in pain as I ask for your help from under the bodies and make me sacrifice myself for you to survive?”

I looked at her in shock after I heard those words.

I couldn't believe those words came out of Celine.

I have changed.

But I think she changed a lot to.

Why should I take everything on my scolder?

I approached her and told her in a voice that was full of pain.

”I didn't know that he was alive. Did you want me to break into the middle of the monsters and try to save him, only to have him die anyway, did you want me to kill you and kill myself and take the road where there is nothing but death?”

I turned to put my hands on her head.

But she blocked my hand.

She didn't say anything else. But she looked at me with empty eyes like she was telling me that I was the criminal.

I looked into her with sadness in my eyes .

But suddenly her shape changed, and she looked different.

It was a different beautiful woman standing in front of me.

As a strong voice that was screaming in my heart saying only one word over and over.

Yama.

Yama.

Fuck who voice is that.

It's the same guy that was tied up inside my dreams.

And suddenly came in front of me a lot of scenes in my mind.

Of Things I've never seen in my  life before .

I was carrying this beautiful woman in my hands.

And I was kissing her.

I held her, and told her how much I loved her.

A lot of beautiful scenes that were burning my heart, and I don't know where it was coming from.

The a voice still saying one word .

Yama.

Yama.

I still thought I was looking at Celine, whose face was gradually disappearing

And the other woman face appeared in it's place

And another scene showed up in front of me of that woman standing in front of me, wearing a different clothes, carrying a dagger and telling me that she planned all of this from the beginning

And hack into the dagger in her hands in my heart

Those strikes weren't painful, but the words were more painful, they made me torn from the inside

I put my hand on my head and I ask myself who am I

Then I heard Celine saying

”We trusted you. I thought you were the hero who was gonna to save everyone.”

I looked in her eyes

But her look was still the same

She  really became like that other woman Yama, which I don't know anything about, but that fucking name that keeps repeating in my mind

And these are the scenes I feel have happened to me

But

My feet moved on its own