162 Relief (1/2)

You might wait a lot for something and it doesn't happen

And it could happen without you waiting for it

You might look forward and see nothing

But when you turn you're around, that thing shows up

It's fucking luck

Which tells you you won't get what you want and no one will get it, you will continue to feel that strange feeling of death

You'll feel like you're a curse on this world

And that the world is your curse

you won't be able, to tell the truth

Because it will be chasing you

When I heard Hogan's voice coming from behind

I smiled

He jumped from the back in front of the door, he was wearing a hat that looked like something a circus magician would wear

he looked at me with a funny smile and a really weird expression

An expression that makes You feel like you're standing in front of a creature from a different world

He seemed to have been hiding a lot inside of him and showing very little

He was smiling but I feel like he wasn't

He said with a cheerful smile on his weird face

”Master, I've been waiting for you and watching everything that's happened to you so far since your left to this place.”

”What do you think of what you saw? ”

I said that with confusion

” Master, you can't see it, you're close you must open your eyes, the truth is in front of you, master, but you must have the courage to see it.”

He said it jumps right and left like a circus clown

he only kept saying one thing over and over

”the Truth is a very strange word. The Trut, the truth, the truth”

Then laugh and laugh and he didn't shut up

Is this Hogan crazy or what?

I don't understand what he means

”master, you will soon understand”

He said it then shut up

Did he just read my thoughts

I don't know what's going on, and I don't want to ask him any more because I know I'm going to get another mystery, and I don't have time or mind for another mystery

But something was wrong with the way he said the word 'master' it came out very strange from his mouth

I felt something was not working

It's like he's been used to it for years

Or was it completely in my head

You want to pay 50 souls to enter the store door number 100?

He said smiling

He lifted the hat off his head then he moved his hand over it

The hat color was so blue and it had some yellow stars on it

But I felt that there was a giant energy coming out of the hat

It's like it contains the spirits of the world

I released a lot of lights out of my body and it got inside the hat

With every light that came out of my body, I felt strange and an unspeakable feeling

No, it's not pain. I know pain

Not happy, though, I I don't know what happiness is all the time but I still know how happiness

And it's not a regret. I don't feel regret

But it feels like something's been lifted from my soul

Something heavy

Fuck

With every light that was coming out of me, I felt that weird feeling

Yeah,

I was the feeling of relief

Ha-ha-ha-ha