Chapter 180 (1/2)
Chapter one eight zero - Continuation 5: I was afraid that you will blame me
”I'm afraid that you blame me!” Shui Ruoshan finally shouted out what he feared in his heart.
”Is this why you keep worrying and evading me?”
Seeing the little guy finally opened up, a gleam of light flashed in Yin Suye's emotionless eyes, and the corner of his mouth slowly curved up to a pleasant arc. It turned out that his little guy was afraid of how he would feel, that's why he(SRS) never dared to be honest! This shows that he has quite an important position in the little guy's heart than he imagined, and this discovery makes Yin Suye felt very satisfied.
”Yes.”
Now that he come clean with everything, Shui Ruoshan could answer the questions without any pressures.
”I do not blame you!”
Seeing that the little guy is still anxiously waiting to be sentenced, Yin Suye quickly gave his verdict first. Although he wanted to slightly punish the little guy for hiding something from him, to make him keep this lesson in mind, but he couldn't bear to see him(SRS) uncomfortable, so he had to compromise first. They will have a long time ahead anyway, he can always find an opportunity later on to settle accounts. But right now, the most important thing is to calm down the pessimistic little guy first.
”Actually, I …” I blame myself!
Just that Shui Ruoshan didn't know how to say out the lower half of the sentence. In fact, the moment he knew that the [Mowu Dalu] continent was created by him, and realized that Yin Suye is a living person, he had asked himself this question countless times. If not for his personal preference that he made Yin Suye the villain and deliberately arranged such a tragic fate for him, won't Yin Suye be able to prevent from going against his family? Because with Yin Suye's ability that won't lose the protagonist Huang Beichen, Yin Suye is totally capable of becoming another 'winner in life'1meaning, those people who sail smoothly down their life! Unfortunately, all these assumptions were destroyed with just one decision from him(SRS)! It is precisely because of this that he always has deep guilt towards Yin Suye!
”That's not your fault!”
Even if Shui Ruoshan didn't continue his words, Yin Suye still knew what the little guy wanted to express, so he instantly countered back. In fact, he has always felt that the little guy is particularly easy to compromise and give in to him in their interactions. Originally, he didn't think there was anything wrong with this, because at least this shows that the little guy cares for him and will subconsciously treat him well. But as their feelings gradually deepen, the little guy's subconscious politeness became a hindrance to further their feelings. Because their feelings were not equal, they cannot achieve equality/balance.
”But …” Shui Ruoshan frowned slightly. He disagreed with Yin Suye's statement but didn't know how to accurately express the conflict in his heart.
”Do you think that my misfortune was caused by your own hands, so you feel ashamed to face me?” Yin Suye really knows those habits of Shui Ruoshan.
The moment Shui Ruoshan's facial expression changes, he will know what he wants to express before Shui Ruoshan himself. Their feelings are not equal, not because he is stronger than the little guy, but because the little guy felt guilty towards him.
”Yes.” Shui Ruoshan nodded slightly.