Chapter 83 - Jealousy (1/2)

”Cameron.” I pleaded with him with a low voice, my voice creaked.

”Lily, were you jealous?” He asked finally looking at me straight in my eyes.

I sighed, cursing myself mentally for having walked in that damn bathroom.

”I was Cameron. I was jealous. Happy now?” I blurted out.

”I felt jealous so much that the idea of seeing you with her made me go crazy and I tripped her.” I continued, my voice trembled because I was so agitated and scared he would leave me.

Cameron raised an eyebrow still in silence, probably in disbelief. He didn't expect me to be jealous nor to behave in that way and I could see through his gaze that he was disappointed.

Oh, how I wished I could read his mind only on that occasion even if I would only read bad things that would still be better than silence.

”Lily...” He turned around and punched against the silk in anger.

”I told you I didn't like those things.” He raised his voice.

I shut my eyes and cursed myself even more.

”I told you that was why I always avoided lowering my walls.” He whispered as he got closer maybe forgetting about the woman's presence.

”I'm sorry.” I managed to whisper with what was left of my voice.

”I can't avoid it, Cameron. I can't. And I can't stop myself from feeling this. So I am sorry if this disappoints you or if this makes you angry but I can't suppress it.”

I felt so angry, angry with myself for having done that to that woman, for not having trusted Cameron. Angry with Carl because it was his fault if I became so insecure and lacked trust in Cameron's regards.

”Speak Cameron!” I spat, I couldn't bear that silence anymore.

Was that the end of us? Was that the edge? Our fall? Could he tell me? Because that excruciating silence was breaking my heart apart.

”Speak, tell me that we're done because we've broken one of your silly rules! Tell me that I am too much involved and that you're scared to open up. Tell me that I disappointed you because I know that I did. Tell me that....”

He took one long step forward and pushed me against the floor locking his lips on me and kissing me passionately leaving me speechless.

Taking both the words and the breath out of my mouth.

And when he departed I forgot what I was saying and I looked at him destabilizing puzzled.

”I can't stop it too, Lily.” He whispered against my mouth as he gently caressed my lips.

He chuckled, still looking down at my lips, his breath brushing through my chin. ”That gesture was silly, yes.”

I laughed too,” it was.”

”But I forgive you.”

He kissed me again, my stomach filled with butterflies and tingled its way up to my throat. My heart beating so fast that the blood in my veins thrilled with joy.

I darted my haze to the woman who was staring at us confused and surprised. She was probably even more shocked than me.