Chapter 88 - 85....reality... (1/2)
This old man, what was he trying to do?
Is it not enough that because of the rumours of the Qins becoming your in-laws, your business is at its peak? Do you still want to dupe the QIN's money with that shoddy plan?
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Her attention went towards the source of her disturbance...
'Ah~ Xun Luli? You are the person who is in the rumours, right? I really, really planned on ignoring you, you know? Why the hell are you attracting my attention? I know since there are rumours, Xuanxuan must have allowed them to come out. I know that it must be something that was needed to be done to gain something, but you see, even though I know it's not true... I just can't handle my mental health. I'm very prone to anger issues, I can always control every emotion, but Xuanxuan is not an emotion, he is my life!! I know I should calm down, but you father and daughter, I don't like where this situation is going-- WHY THE HELL DID YOU LOOK AT HIM? YOU ARE NOT WORTHY!! GET YOUR EYES OFF OF HIM!!!', Meilin who had lost it to that beast inside, unconsciously gripped the knife on the table.....
IF SHE DIED, EVERY ONE OF HER REASON OF ANXIETY WILL DIE WITH HER...
This was the real Meilin, this mentally unstable girl with vicious urges, she knew she was not good enough for a man like Xuanxuan who is supposed to stay in the light.
It had been like this since that incident 12 years ago, she knew that she had lost a part of her because of that incident, maybe it was her heart, maybe it was her emotions or maybe, it was her humanity, she knew that she was broken, broken beyond repair....
It was only during her time with ZiXuan that she felt like a proper human being.
In the recent years, she had become someone who can feel emotions for other people outside from her Xuanxuan, but maybe calling them emotions wouldn't be fair to the other party involved, her world was distinguished into 'her people' and 'others', with Xuanauan being at the centre of her people.....
Sometimes, she actually wanted to be more of a human too, that way she can act according to her emotions, but the her who had probably lost many of it couldn't be normal ever again. The scar that the incident had left was too big to hide. She wasn't happy with how things were right now, but she had learnt to accept it all slowly.