Chapter 30 - 30. How long..... (1/2)

It started as amusement, a little prank on her but watching her closing herself, again and again, led him to lose control over himself.....

He had lost his rationality....

The incidents of yesterday and today, her continued rejection of her emotions, her ignorance, her years when he was not beside her and didn't know of, that man...and many many things ticked him off to no avail and it all went loose at this very moment.

As his calloused thumb rubbed over her soft wet lips, his mind went haywire thinking of their taste; as his dark eyes looked over her beautiful collarbone and slightly exposed cleavage, all he could think of was marking them for all to see, making her his and he was very close to fulfilling it.

After he had asked about kissing her, her visibly startled expression, her slightly parted lips, her shocked but twinkling eyes made him go closer to her.

He had already lost control over his body for a while now.

He closed the distance between there faces to a few centimeters when he heard her call his name in a shaky voice, ”Xu-Xuan....Xuan...?”

It seems she was slightly scared as it was not every day that he heard this kind of emotions from her voice, it was either flat or it was doting towards him, never had it held fear.

His mind cleared up as that slight change was enough to bring him back to his senses, a small light shone through his dark eyes as he restrained his desires for the Nth time.

He could never force himself on her, she should never be treated like that, his conscience came back.

He took a deep breath inside and closed the distance again to bare millimetres, when he saw her shrink her head and close her eyes, he almost let go himself but he didn't want to scare her anymore, he just gave a light peck on her cheek and shifted his head, as he, flipped his body to the side beside her and started laughing loudly, scaring the hell out of her.

.........

When he shifted his body to hover above her, she had lost her cool for a second but watching him stay like that for a lengthened period she thought of fleeing because no matter what, she was a girl in her prime.

Being in this compromising position with a breathtaking man with a disheveled but wild look, no matter her self control and one track brain of ”he only thinks of me as his sister”, she couldn't help but think in a certain way and that too, when the man over her was the man of her life, before she gave some weird reaction, she took the choice of fleeing.

When he had asked her about kissing, watching those soul-sucking darkened eyes and that evil grin she realised for the first time that XuanXuan was also a man, an enticing one at that.

Her love for him was, of course, the type where she wanted to be beside him for her lifetime; call it her cowardice or low self-esteem but she never thought of what would happen next, of course, she wanted him whole and was ready to offer herself, her heart, body, and soul, her everything to him but she never thought of him wanting her back and was never able to see or think of such a side of him.

Just the thought of him already grown up and that the man over her being the 'XuanXuan' she knew of; the sudden changes in him, scared her for the first time.

She was scared of this side of him, it was a 'him', who she didn't know about.....

But that was no all, just the thought of being taken by such a 'him' which made a certain part of heart glad and yearn for it to happen, was scaring her more.

She was losing her control too.

Her expectations, her insecurities, the man over her, everything was scaring her into shrinking her head.

She didn't know that when she had called him out his expression changed, she was too scared to take notice of it, or on the matter, think of anything but before she knew it he was beside her and was laughing loudly which was very rare of him, yes, even in her presence he rarely laughed like this where his body shook, it's has been a long long while.

She softly stuttered out his name again, ”XuanXuan..” as she put her hand over the place he had kissed.

He took hold of his emotions again and stopped laughing for a bit.