Chapter 233 - Whether it was justifiable (2/2)
(But to hit that damn grasshopper multiple times until his eyeball splash out, leaving Farhah traumatize in the process... Like I said, even I was wondering the same. Whether my actions was justifiable. And most importantly, whether it was truly my father influence, or it was just me, enjoying it but putting all the blame on him) [Karon]
I was disgusted of course. By the scene, by the scream, by the sound that grasshopper make. It was just random spouting, it was incomprehensible but somehow, I knew he was asking me to stop.
And a new doubt had occurred to me since then. Am I really one of the ten heroes? Aren't hero supposed to be someone who brings peace and also bring comfort and feeling of safety to other? But, here I am, somehow making the cheerful Farhah avoiding me
As I am thinking about it, I wonder into the dining room where Mrs Gizzere, Grandpa Filvisar and Claude was discussing something. Maybe about the new school
”You seem to be in a bad mood” [Gizzere]
”Doubting yourself dear Karon?” [Filvisar]
”I...” [Karon]
I don't feel like sharing it... what will they think of me should I said it. Maybe they will think negatively of me
”I see. You must feel conflicted about what you did the other day, and by the looks of it, a new seed of doubt been sprout inside your mind” [Gizzere]
”!” [Karon]
How did she... As if she's reading my mind.
”Are you by any chance doubting whether you're worthy of being one of the heroes?” [Filvisar]
~Nod~
”Master can definitely help in this area, but...” [Claude]
”Indeed. For a quiet child like him, maybe someone of your age would be better” [Filvisar]
”Then how about Rean? He had the same doubt before, surely you can consult with him easier than with us” [Gizzere]
”True, but if Rean somehow couldn't help you, please don't hesitate to ask any one of us” [Claude]
”I will. Thank you” [Karon]
Asking Rean. That isn't a bad idea, in fact, something that I truly need right now. As the eldest among us and as the first one to manifest this blessing (not that my heroes blessing manifested yet), surely he knew a lot more than us
(When he comes back, I will ask him!) [Karon]
In the meantime, let just use the training hall and train for a bit
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As I practice, I can hear the gossiping of the young adventure with new soldiers recruits. Here I am, thinking they will bad mouthed me but instead
(The serial killer dwarf... Father, why did he decided to come back to Estel!?) [Karon]