Chapter 394 (1/2)

A month and a half later, I turned on my mobile phone again and saw 99 +.

At that time, my mood, not ordinary surging, can be described, at that time of their own, only feel sorry for Liu man and heartache.

Heartache in the one and a half months that I disappeared, she is also with me, worried, constantly missing me, not a day reduced.

Looking at him, he said ”good morning” to me every morning, and said ”good night” to me before going to bed at night. In these 45 days, he insisted day by day, day by day. I don't know what can support her. It's like throwing into the sea without reply.

But his insistence really moved me. I want to pay for a woman sincerely and make myself better for him.

Although I know that she will be afraid of herself, I don't want to change my life after that.

During the period of being a soldier, I feel that I have really become a lot more mature and my thinking has become more comprehensive.

Maybe it's because the world you see in school is different from that in the army, and you feel that the world you see becomes more colorful.

Even I began to get used to this kind of life in the army, this kind of rhythm.

If I leave the army now and go back to school again, I think I will no longer have the enthusiasm for learning.

I like to discuss with each other with that group in the army. Compared with Z University and military academy, I am more longing for military examination and military academy.

It was a sublimation of emotion.

In the army, I feel an unprecedented sense of belonging and existence. Only here can I feel that my value can really be realized and that I can play my role here.

It's a natural illusion that I must be useful. I wander in my mind again and again, and then I get time again and again. I'm trapped in the mire of the army, and I don't want to go out.

So that 45 days after I came back, I picked up my mobile phone and saw the 99 plus messages Liu man sent me. I felt that my heart was full of mixed feelings. It was complicated and difficult to understand.

Sometimes I really don't want to grow up, I really don't want to face all kinds of choices too early.

Until I grow up, I feel that when I was a child, I was really good. I could live a carefree life. Even if I would be bullied, I didn't need to face such a difficult choice.

”I'm back.” Looking at the general information Liu man sent me, I just returned a simple message, telling him his own safety.

Because I am not very good at expressing my feelings. Although I say that I have thousands of words in my heart that I want to make clear, it is only condensed into a simple sentence of peace.

Because they know that what they want is just a simple peace, that I'm still alive, that I'm not hurt, and that I've protected myself, that's enough.

Today, Liu man, who had planned to report his itinerary to me as usual, and said good afternoon to me by the way, suddenly saw the message I gave him.