Chapter 1858: Between fate (2/2)
She smiled and touched her chapped lips, seeming to put a non-existent cigarette to her mouth.
Li Yao was silent for a moment, and whispered: ”I have heard from colleagues and psychologists in the army that Major Helianlie seems to be troubled by a serious mental illness. There are not only the factors of battlefield syndrome, but also the strong stimulation in the early stage. For...I'm sorry.”
Shen Wenyin was startled slightly and laughed blankly: ”President Li, why do you have to say sorry to me? He is too narrow-minded and can't get it out of the horns. What does it have to do with others?”
Li Yao said, ”That’s what I said, but I always have a strange feeling. I can’t talk about guilt. It’s just that I’ve never thought before that people like Helianlie will start a family and have their own. Feelings, anger, sorrow, joy and pursuit of ideals will be like this... a heroic sacrifice.”
Shen Wenyin raised his eyebrows, watching Li Yao's eyes become more surprised and puzzled, and couldn't help saying: ”Chairman Li, you and the'Vulture Li Yao' in books, news, and various publicity and entertainment works. The children are not like them. If it weren’t for a lot of people from the Secret Sword Bureau or some secret service department, they talked to me for a long time, and checked the things I carried with me dozens of times. I would doubt if you were a fake. Up.”
Li Yao also laughed, scratching his nose and said: ”Since my identity was exposed, it seems that everyone who has seen me has said so. When everyone talks about it, even I almost think I am a counterfeit.”
Shen Wenyin held back a laugh, let out a long suffocation, and said: ”Actually, I also have a very weird feeling now. The things I have thought about for decades have turned into reality, but they are so illusory, dreamy and illusory. It doesn't seem to be true.
”Did you know, President Li, there was a time when I hated you very, very, very much-that is, Helian Lie had over-practised and was confused, crying and vomiting while holding his belly and rushing at me? When yelling and yelling with my mother, fangs and claws like a brute.
”At that time, I was five or six years old, six or seven years old. I barely knew a few things. I also came into contact with the original legend of'Vulture Li Yao' from all sides. I also knew how my father played a role in that legend. Disgraceful character.
”Of course I can't say that you did something wrong. Everything is on his own account. You are absolutely right, and you are also a victim.
”However, when Hellenlie tortured himself and us so hard that everyone could hardly survive, I, a six or seven-year-old girl, would always be thinking about it, if there was no one like you, I would never There is no ”Vulture Li Yao”, and Helianlie has not suffered such lessons and changes. Will his destiny, my mother's destiny and my destiny be completely different? Can I live like other children? It has to be a little bit more ordinary, a little more relaxed?
”At least, when other kids are playing the ”War Game”, they will pretend to be my dad being beaten by you over and over again, until he vomits, and then chase my **** to learn the sound of my dad's vomiting!
”The sound of a dozen or so children learning from my father’s vomiting together, and haunting me until a long time later, I, I can even tolerate what Helianlie did to me and my mother, but I just can’t bear that. The deliberately pretended vomiting sound, at the most extreme time, I thought of death, ninety-seven times.”
Li Yao blushed and said, ”I'm sorry, I don't think there was a mistake in what I did at the time, but if I was given another chance, I might choose another, more...controllable method.”
Shen Wenyin laughed again with a calm face, as if telling another person's story: ”President Li, you must not change your mind, otherwise it will be bad.
”I have cursed myself, cursed you, cursed Helianlie, and even cursed my mother countless times. Why do I curse the **** fate to make such a big joke with me?
”But one day, when the best thing in the world happened to me, when I met another big man, and later... I had a little man again, I suddenly felt the little things that happened to me in the past. Di, and even all the good or bad things that happened in this world before I was born, have their meaning.
”The whole point of these things is that when I walked to the middle of the road on that icy morning, I slipped and fell severely, making half of my body numb and unable to get up for a long time, and then all the past came to my mind. It made me completely collapsed, crying like a child, and dimly.
”Because I was crying so thinly, the stupid man who was standing next to your right hand and was secretly watching us noticed and stumbled over to help me.
”Until now, I still remember that I pushed him away, crying and saying a very stupid thing, I said,'Go away, my father is Helianlie', he was pushed so that he was sitting on the ground. After touching his head for a long time, he gasped in his mouth and asked, ”Who is Helianlie?”
”Hehe, I have imagined 10,000 times what the world would be like without you, but if'Vulture Li Yao' had never beaten Helianlie, his fate was completely changed, and he would not meet my mother, even if I met, as he was a good-looking son, and it was impossible to have the slightest intersection with my mother, so I wouldn't be born at all.
”Even if I was born and raised in another mysterious and mysterious way, I would not be able to walk through the cold streets of that planet in the early hours of that winter. Will not cry like a fool.
”Then, I won't know him, and I won't own him. They, our family of three are like soap bubbles every day when we are together. They disappear without a trace with a'pop'. I just think of it. Scared to death.
”So, President Li, destiny is such a wonderful thing. If it weren't for the conflict between you and Helianlie back then, not only would I not appear in this world, but even this stubborn, crawling little guy would not. Born!”