Chapter 99 - Bad News! (3) (1/2)

After Bima left, I was starting to feel uneasy. Even though, Sanji had said not to think about it too much, I couldn't help but feel uneasy. As I kept worrying about things that had not even happened, the rest of my sleep went bad. I kept getting nightmare.

It was not the same nightmare as I had at that time, the one with shadow in it.

It was like any other nightmares, where I was surrounded by darkness or being chased by monsters.

I know it sounds like a child's dream, but I was pretty sure it was monsters. Shapeless monsters.

By the time I woke up in the morning, ah it was in the afternoon, I had dark circles under my eyes and my eyes seemed to miss the softness of the pillows. Even the cold water I purposely splashed onto my face couldn't reduce the awful sensation I was feeling.

”Good morning, Jane.” I could hear the teasing tone in his voice, but I didn't care.

I nodded to Sanji who was cooking our break... lunch. It was lunch time, of course.

”Erm, judging from your face, I don't think you have a good night sleep.” He smiled.

”No shit, Sherlock.” I replied before I grabbed a bottle of cold water bottle from his refrigerator and put it on my face.

”Sorry for acting comfy in your house. I'm not in the mood for courtesy.” I said while savoring the coldness of the bottle on my slightly warm face with my eyes closed.

”You'll catch a cold like that.” I heard him saying gently.

I replied with a low hum, but ignoring his warning. ”Where is Senior Hani?”

”He went back home this morning while you're still asleep. With all the commotion last night, he didn't even wake up. You can imagine how tired he was.” Sanji chuckled.

”Where's Tom? I thought I heard him coming last night.”

”He's gone.” I answered shortly.

”Gone? What do you mean 'gone'?”

I opened my eyes and saw Sanji sitting in front of me with a frown on his face. After considering the possible outcome that might happen, I decided not to tell him about how Tom was only in a comma.

So, I shrugged and closed my eyes again.

”I don't know. He came and said goodbye. That's all.”

I didn't need to know how he reacted to that. My mind focused on the bad feeling I had inside. Somehow, the bad feeling turned into something else. I felt my chest tightened and I had the urge to cry. My eyes started to feel warm, but I suppressed it. I took a deep breath repeatedly, but the feeling didn't disappear. It eased up a bit, but it was still there.

”What's wrong with you? Are you okay?” Sanji looked at me with a frown in his face. Worry laced his voice and his gaze, but I was too deep into the strange feeling I had to react to his worry.

I shook my head lightly. ”I don't know. Mood swing, maybe?” I said, but deep inside my heart I knew it was not a mere mood swing.

It was something stronger than that. Something that I couldn't comprehend the origin. It was different than mood swing.

”Are you on your period?” He frowned.

I smiled a bit. I had just had my period, and it had passed the time for me to have mood swing because of that. But, I didn't say anything to Sanji.

”Ah well, you must enlighten your mood. Your hungry stomach will only make it worse. Why don't you dig in now? Before it gets cold.” Sanji pointed at the food in front of me.

”Thanks.” To make him less worry about me, I decided to just go along with it. Even though I didn't have appetite, I must eat.

Sanji must notice the way I ate different from before, but he didn't say anything. He put my favorite dessert on the table after I ate -I didn't know where he found out about it -but it still didn't improve my mood.

Instead, the urge to cry was only getting stronger.

I took a deep breath over and over again, to calm my heart beat which was thumping loudly. After finishing the whole cup of dessert, I excused myself to get back to my room.

If I really cried, I didn't want to do it in front of Sanji.

The glaring light from outside hurt my eyes and somehow it irritated me. I closed the curtains until the room was enveloped in the dim darkness. I even didn't turn on the lamp.

I sat there in the dark. The only light that could get into the room was the one that happened to peek from the slight opening of the curtains. It was enough to let me see The White Army who was now standing in front of me in a straight rows and lines.

”Siji.” I called my Adviser.

”Here, Milady.” He appeared in front of me right after I called him out.

I was still frowning. After I sat in the dark only for a minute, somehow I had a hunch of the cause of the bad feeling I had.

”Find Bima, bring him here. Don't let Sanji know about it.” I ordered him.