Chapter 34 - Am I Cheating? (1) (1/2)

Things with Senior Rizal seemed to get worse every day. He kept disappearing and no news from him at all. Then, on the next day, he would appear and hug me. I mean, yes, I felt guilty because of all the things happened between me and Tom. But, I couldn't help but to feel annoyed at Senior Rizal's strange action.

But again, I asked myself, 'am I cheating? Does having a relationship with a ghost consider cheating?'

I still liked Senior Rizal, but ...

I didn't even know what was going on.

”Jane...” A whisper in my left ear startled me from my daydreaming.

As I turned my head, a pair of sturdy arms enveloped me in a warm embrace. The familiar scent of his body assaulted my nose as my body gradually relaxed in his embrace.

”Senior. Are you done with your class?” I asked as I tilted my head to look at his side profile.

”Jane. You know how much I love you, right?” Surprisingly, he didn't answer my question this time and said this thing where I knew for sure he was not this type of person. Not when we were practically in public place. We rarely showed our affection to each other in front of other people.

I frowned hearing his question. This was probably a touching question or a proof of his love to me, but only if we were not in odd situation like he kept playing hide and seek with me. In this kind of situation, I could feel something was off from him. It was like he was feeling guilty and he might leave me sooner or later.

It was true that while I was feeling confused with my relationship with him and my own relationship with Tom, it had never crossed my mind that we would break up. Tom was a ghost. We could never be together. And Senior Rizal was a human, in flesh and bones. As a normal human, it would not be hard who I should pick, right?

”What's wrong?” I turned myself to face him, pulling myself out from his embrace.

Senior Rizal smiled bitterly as his hand reached out to touch my cheek. His thumb rubbed my cheek lovingly as his eyes showed his affection to me. This kind of direct touch, warmth, and sense of security were different from what I experienced with Tom.