Chapter 875: Decision (1/2)

The problem with Gravis' lightning had to be resolved at some point, but Gravis wished that it hadn't come so early.

He still didn't know how to solve it.

However, he had no more time to think of a plan.

The will of Divine Lightning was attacking his consciousness, and he felt that it was quickly gaining ground. Emotions like happiness, love, companionship, solace, mirth and calm were vanishing.

Gravis felt himself changing.

The image of his past self in the lower world appeared in his mind. Back then, Gravis had been in tune with his lightning, and he had felt nothing but cold detachment, apathy, rage, pride, and greyness.

The world started to lose all of its colors as everything started to turn grey in Gravis' eyes. He felt himself not caring about family and companions anymore. He felt himself not caring about Stella anymore.

Gravis was slowly turning into the very thing he didn't want to become. He was turning into a person similar to the old Black Magnate, into his old self.

There was only power.

He wanted more power.

He needed more power!

'No!' Gravis shouted in his mind as he went against everything. 'Power is not the goal, but the tool to achieve my goal!'

'What if I become powerful? What then? Will I search for even more power? However, everything has to have an end! At some point, there is no more power to be gained. What then? What will I do then?'

'As long as I tie my happiness to something external, all of it will vanish as soon as I stop advancing! Then, only bitterness remains!'

'And I will stop advancing at some point! There can't be an ever-growing scale of power!'

'Can't you see this truth, Divine Lightning!? Can't you understand!?'

However, nothing that Gravis said mattered to his Divine Lightning.

The Divine Lightning had been suppressed for far too long, and all of its rage exploded outward. Gravis had suppressed it for far too long, and nothing would stop it from claiming control over his Spirit!

Nothing!

Gravis felt parts of his personality and Spirit vanishing. His arms and legs became harder to move as they started to resist him.

Who was Gravis?

What made a person?

To be honest, there were not two people inside of him. A being needed a soul and a will to be a being.

This meant that there was only one Gravis. After all, he only had one Spirit and one will. There was no Gravis and Divine Lightning. All of this was simply Gravis.

If the Divine Lightning assumed control, Gravis' true personality wouldn't be suppressed or anything. It wasn't like he would be locked away, being forced to watch someone else control his body.

No, it was very different.

One's personality and emotions sprung from their Spirit and will. Based on the Spirit and will, one became a person and assumed a personality.

So, if Gravis lost to his Divine Lightning, he would still be Gravis. After all, it was the same Spirit and will.

However, his personality would change severely.

He would be far more susceptible to emotions that Divine Lightning might feel, and his goals and priorities would align with Divine Lightning. His old emotions and his old personality would vanish.

In short, Gravis wasn't being replaced, but he was changing.

And this terrified Gravis even more than being suppressed inside his own head.

Because then, Gravis wouldn't even want to change anymore. After the clash, Gravis would wake up and believe his old self to be a fool. He would wholeheartedly believe that something like love and happiness was for weaklings.

Gravis' mannerisms, sense of self, and heritage would remain. One would even be able to see quite some similarities between this Gravis and the other one.

He would still be Gravis.

But he wouldn't be his current self anymore.

Was this good?

Was this bad?