Chapter 610: I Dont Know (2/2)
Gravis looked towards the sky in silence.
'I don't remember father's voice.'
'It has been so incredibly long. I don't remember my father's voice. I don't remember mom's voice. I only have a weird inkling of how my father's face looks like. Same thing for mom.'
'I don't remember how Orpheus looks or sounds. I remember how humans act, but by now, their conduct also feels distant. I am so used to how beasts act that it would feel weird to be among humans again.'
'Is this what you meant, mom?' Gravis thought. 'Back then, you have seen that I have grown distant to you because of only seven years apart. Back then, I felt like the person I have met was different from the person I have left behind, even though you have not changed at all. After all, for you, only a couple of days had passed.'
'My perception and growth have changed me, making me see people I have known previously differently to before.'
Gravis looked to the ground.
'In the lower world, I could still vividly remember all your faces and voices. I still felt a connection.'
'But now, I feel nothing. I feel like I should love and long for your company, father, mom, but it just isn't there. I should be excited to return home, but I'm just not.'
'The highest world feels like an alien world. I have only seen parts of the city and the outside of the city, but I basically know nearly nothing else about my homeworld. Is the highest world truly my home?'
'I don't know anymore,' Gravis thought.
'In this world, I have my children, Azure, Ferris, Orthar, and Styr. In my homeworld, I have father, mother, and Orpheus.'
Several minutes in silence passed.
'I don't know,' Gravis thought in confusion, alienation, and pain.
Then, a long period of silence passed as the unchanging world continued existing.
Hours passed.
Nothing changed.
There was just silence.
Peace and quiet.
A world without worries, a world without danger.
Nothing.