Chapter 23 (1/2)
Haizi watched the two men grind and haw, but he couldn't solve each other quickly for a long time. It was estimated that it would be midnight if they grind on like this again, so he asked the others to waste their energy to separate Gaojing and Su Yuanzhou.
Gao Jing returns home in silence. Su Yuanzhou sits on the side of the card seat and keeps pouring wine with a bottle. The more he drinks, the more boring he gets.
He still left a trace of sober will to ponder. Just now he said that, he couldn't go too far. He didn't even dare to admit that he had some guilt and regret in his heart.
For Su Qiuge, for Gao Jing.
He shakes his head and shakes away these messy ideas. Looking at the confused lights of the nightclub, he slumps on the soft leather sofa. He looks at the men and women who are laughing on the dance floor. Their laughter and intimacy are more and more dazzling, and they are more and more lonely. He pinches the bottle tightly and bears the thought of calling to the ground, He took another big mouthful.
Spicy with a bitter taste in the tongue spread, Su Yuanzhou looked at the empty side, suddenly feel a sense of suffocation spread to the heart.
Countless irrigation, he was Haizi they carry back when the whole person has some not very sober.
Haizi was a little worried after they sent him to the community. They wanted to send him into the apartment. He frowned and threw away those people. He staggered in the elevator, opened the door, took off his shoes and stumbled into the porch.
It's midnight now. The living room of the apartment has a large French window overlooking the night view of the city.
At night, the city is very quiet, and the traffic on the highway is surging with neon lights.
This apartment belongs to him alone. He usually feels that no one bothers him, but it's very quiet. At this time, the lack of plainness adds a sense of coldness and loneliness.
When he walked in slowly, I don't know why. At this time, Gao Jing's hoarse words sounded in his ears.
”Su Yuanzhou, look at how many people will stay with you in the end!”
His head is dizzy, and he frowns, remembering the days when Yang Xue and Su Jingkun quarreled.
When I was a child, I seemed to be praised as smart and studious. I went to primary school early. Later, because of fighting, I was detained for a period of time, and I was at the same level with Su Qiuge.
At that time, Yang Xue and Su Jingkun quarreled day by day over trivial matters. Su Qiuge went to a trusteeship kindergarten and chased after others every day. He didn't know anything.
It seems that everything I have seen and heard is the dirty and dark side of the family since I was sensible. From the beginning, I was worried that the family would break up, to the end, I was numb to hope that it would end soon.
Later, when he decided to live apart, Yang Xue gave him a blank look and took away Su Qiuge, who was young and obedient, without looking back.
Su Yuanzhou's eyes have been recorded for more than ten years, and even appeared in every nightmare later, which made him wake up in a cold sweat.
What Yang Xue needs is a clever and obedient child at her disposal. Such a disobedient child like him will only make her lose face.
What Yang Xue needs is Su Qiuge.
I do not know when, his disgust for Yang Xue also gradually took Su Qiuge.
Hate her know nothing, hate her do not need to struggle, do not need to resist to accept all this.
Hate the fact that all the people in this family have easily accepted the separation, only he still stays in the same place.
He remembered that day, Su Jingkun patted his head, showing a wry smile, ”now you're going to live with your father.”
But the tone is relaxed.
Thinking of Su Jingkun's only time to attend his parents' meeting, he said on the surface that he didn't need it, but he took a seat for him in advance, and even went to the school gate secretly to wait for him.
He watched the other children go in with their parents' hands, and the stream of people around him drowned him.
Later, he learned that Su Jingkun even mistook his school.
He showed the same apologetic and alienated smile as his customers, and sent the latest electronic product: ”Dad's wrong.”
I think of the cold transfer news from the two of them later during the festival. The whole family is happy outside under the fireworks. He is the only one who wants to laugh at the disgraced Spring Festival Gala sketch, but can't, smashing everything to pieces.
In such a lonely night, maybe only to vent on the dance floor, maybe only to drag racing on the mountain road, maybe only to revel with those so-called friends, there will be a false sense of excitement.
No matter how bad the exam is, you can go to the best school. No matter how unruly and teachers against, will not be dropped out. No matter how bad the rumors spread to Su Jingkun's ears, he would only laugh and then continue to be busy.
Yang Xue has never looked at him in the right eye, just as he is a failure of difficult discipline.
Thinking of this, he was more and more angry. He hit the wall hard and showed his teeth in pain.
Then cover your face and squat down slowly.
In such a hazy and pain interwoven, he suddenly emerged in front of the sunny afternoon.
At the beginning, the little girl pulled his sleeve and fell because she couldn't keep up with her. She cried and said to herself, ”brother, don't go.”.He admits that he hates this family and Su Qiuge, who is obedient and doesn't cause trouble in Yang Xue's eyes.
But
Su Yuanzhou quietly leaned against the wall and looked around in the dark. His brain was so dizzy that a disgusting feeling of self disgust floated up. He even covered his mouth and retched a few times.
He suddenly felt lonely, like the tide, and was about to swallow him up.
In countless such nights, did she spend the same way? She is also a person in the empty room, feel about to suffocate.
Maybe she was scared, maybe she
Perhaps she and he are the same, so long, in fact, only with their own.
What's the difference between Yang Xue and Su Jingkun?
Even worse, even worse.
”Su Yuanzhou, you're a fuckin 'asshole.”
Yeah, he's just a jerk.
Clearly hate such a person, but he has become such a person.
How ridiculous.
Su Yuanzhou stares at his reddened hand joints, and the air is filled with wine. A prompt sound comes from his mobile phone wechat, and a flash of brightness flashes in the dark room. He slowly fumbles for his mobile phone in the dark.
Then he opened his eyes slightly and looked at the familiar pink head.
Qiuqiu wants to get rich: if you have something to do, go first.
Su Yuanzhou blinked, staring at the cold words, saw her changed wechat name. He was in a state of extreme distress.
Xu is strong wine up, he picked up the phone, press and hold the voice key.
He suddenly relieved his strength, paralyzed in the wall, eyes empty, red eyes said: ”I'm wrong.”
I shouldn't hate you.
You shouldn't be as miserable and lonely as me for so long.
You must feel bad, too.
Stop being so cold to me, OK?
Su Qiuge was preparing to go to bed, suddenly received his two voice.
”I was wrong.”
Su Qiuge:??
She frowned and listened to the sentence ”I'm wrong” again. Somehow, a corner of her heart seemed to collapse and tremble.
In response, she felt that her feelings were a little puzzling and frowned.
Su Yuanzhou is playing the truth adventure??
Listen to his voice like drunk, tone drunk, some decadent, even a little poor.
Or is he drunk?
To be honest, it seems that boys are drunk outside these days. What's more, I have to admit that Su Yuanzhou is a bit of a beauty, in case
Su Qiuge just wanted to respond. Seeing the news that he said he was ugly before, she didn't want to talk to him. She put down her cell phone and prepared to go to bed.
Su Qiuge closed his eyes and lay on the bed. He tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. In his mind, Su Yuanzhou was tied up and sold to a remote village.
After hesitating for a moment, she got up and said, ”where are you now?”
After a while, there came a voice, bull head is not horse mouth.
”I'll be good to you, double to you Burp... ”
The tone sounds really miserable, even a hiccup.
Su Qiuge
No, is this person really talking to her?
Can't it be the wrong wechat for my girlfriend??
After all, he is the king of the sea. Maybe he is feeding the fish.
Thinking of this, Su Qiuge didn't bother to pay attention to him again. He typed a few words casually and sent them to him.
Qiuqiu wants to get rich: Su Yuanzhou will drink less wine next time.
Qiuqiu wants to be rich: go to bed early.
Su Yuanzhou woke up the next morning with a splitting headache and an itchy dry throat.
He coughed several times with his hand against his jaw. His whole body seemed to have been crushed by the wheel of the car, and he was in severe pain.
He suddenly found that he had fallen asleep in the corner of his home last night, and even was carrying a mobile phone on his chest, like holding a baby.
Su Yuanzhou moved his muscles and bones for a while. When he opened the lock vaguely, he found that his mobile phone had stopped in the chat interface of wechat, and then saw the message sent to him by Su Qiuge.
Su Yuanzhou stares at the news and looks surprised.
Su Qiuge seldom cares about him and asks him to drink less??
Is it the initiative to reconcile??
Su Yuanzhou's heart just floated a feeling of joy, and then -
and then saw the two voice messages he had sent to Su Qiuge.
He rubbed his head in doubt and opened it at will.
Then, he heard himself lost, and the flattering voice expanded.
”I was wrong.”
”Lying trough!”Su Yuanzhou's sleepiness suddenly dissipated clean, he suddenly jumped high from the ground, open his eyes, can't believe it.
I dare not even listen to the next one.
After hesitating for a long time, he made enough psychological preparation for himself. His fingertips moved to the second voice and turned it into words: I will do you double good Burp.
After seeing what he had said, Su Yuanzhou almost closed his eyes and fainted.
How can he face Su Qiuge in the future??
I said that last night??
When sober, he would rather die than say stupid words!!
What about his face?
Shit!!