Part 22 (1/2)

”You're making yourself very smart,” he said. ”Where are you going?”

”I'm going to the Crossleys.”

”I'll come with you.”

”Why?” she asked coolly.

”I don't want you to gad about by yourself all the time.”

”You're not asked.”

”I don't care a d.a.m.n about that. You're not going without me.”

”You'd better lie down till I'm ready.”

She thought he was drunk and if he once settled himself on the bed would quickly drop off to sleep. He sat down on a chair and began to smoke a cigarette. She watched him with increasing irritation: When she was ready he got up. It happened by an unusual chance that there was no one in the bungalow. Brevald was working on the plantation and his wife had gone into Apia. Ethel faced him.

”I'm not going with you. You're drunk.”

”That's a lie. You're not going without me.”

She shrugged her shoulders and tried to pa.s.s him, but he caught her by the arm and held her.

”Let me go, you devil,” she said, breaking into Samoan.

”Why do you want to go without me? Haven't I told you I'm not going to put up with any monkey tricks?”

She clenched her fist and hit him in the face. He lost all control of himself. All his love, all his hatred, welled up in him and he was beside himself.

”I'll teach you,” he shouted. ”I'll teach you.”

He seized a riding-whip which happened to be under his hand, and struck her with it. She screamed, and the scream maddened him so that he went on striking her, again and again. Her shrieks rang through the bungalow and he cursed her as he hit. Then he flung her on the bed. She lay there sobbing with pain and terror. He threw the whip away from him and rushed out of the room. Ethel heard him go and she stopped crying. She looked round cautiously, then she raised herself. She was sore, but she had not been badly hurt, and she looked at her dress to see if it was damaged.

The native women are not unused to blows. What he had done did not outrage her. When she looked at herself in the gla.s.s and arranged her hair, her eyes were s.h.i.+ning. There was a strange look in them. Perhaps then she was nearer loving him than she had ever been before.

But Lawson, driven forth blindly, stumbled through the plantation and suddenly exhausted, weak as a child, flung himself on the ground at the foot of a tree. He was miserable and ashamed. He thought of Ethel, and in the yielding tenderness of his love all his bones seemed to grow soft within him. He thought of the past, and of his hopes, and he was aghast at what he had done. He wanted her more than ever. He wanted to take her in his arms. He must go to her at once. He got up. He was so weak that he staggered as he walked. He went into the house and she was sitting in their cramped bedroom in front of her looking-gla.s.s.

”Oh, Ethel, forgive me. I'm so awfully ashamed of myself. I didn't know what I was doing.”

He fell on his knees before her and timidly stroked the skirt of her dress.

”I can't bear to think of what I did. It's awful. I think I was mad.

There's no one in the world I love as I love you. I'd do anything to save you from pain and I've hurt you. I can never forgive myself, but for G.o.d's sake say you forgive me.”

He heard her shrieks still. It was unendurable. She looked at him silently. He tried to take her hands and the tears streamed from his eyes. In his humiliation he hid his face in her lap and his frail body shook with sobs. An expression of utter contempt came over her face. She had the native woman's disdain of a man who abased himself before a woman. A weak creature! And for a moment she had been on the point of thinking there was something in him. He grovelled at her feet like a cur. She gave him a little scornful kick.

”Get out,” she said. ”I hate you.”

He tried to hold her, but she pushed him aside. She stood up. She began to take off her dress. She kicked off her shoes and slid the stockings off her feet, then she slipped on her old Mother Hubbard.

”Where are you going?”