Part 18 (1/2)
”They have been moving the local heavens, ever since the monument was placed, to have it set aside. I suppose they would have succeeded, too, if a large amount given to the city were not contingent on its preservation. But then they can always donate more money in the cause of their sacred respectability.”
Linda had never, she exclaimed, heard of anything more disgusting. It was plain that Hesperia knew nothing of art. ”Every one,” she ran on in the heat of her resentment, ”every one, that is, who should decide, agrees it's magnificent. They were frightfully lucky to get it--Dodge's finest work.” She wrote at once to Pleydon commanding his presence and expressing her contempt of such depravity of opinion. To her surprise he was undisturbed, apparently, by the condemnation of his monument.
He even laughed at her energy of scorn. She was hurt, perceptibly silenced, with a feeling of having been misunderstood or rather undervalued. Her disturbance at any blame attached to the statue of Simon Downige was extremely acute. But, she thought, if it failed to worry Dodge why should she bother. She did, in spite of this philosophy; Simon was tremendously important to her.
He stood for things: she had watched his evolution from the clay sketch, and in Pleydon's mind, to the final heroic proportions; and she had taken for granted that a grateful world would see him in her light.
A woman, she decided, had made the trouble; and she hated her with a personal vigor. Pleydon said:
”I told you that old Simon was unbalanced; now you can see it by his reception in a successful city. The sculptor--do you remember him, a Beaux-Arts graduate?--admits that he had always opposed it, but that political motives overbore his pure protest. There is a scheme now to build a pavilion, for babies, and shut out the monument from open view.
They may do that but time will sweep away their walls. If I had modeled Simon Downige, yes, he would go; but I modeled his vision, his aspiration--the hope of all men for release and purity.
”Downige and the individual babies are unimportant compared to a vision of perfection, of escape. As long as men live, if they live, they'll reach up; and that gesture in itself is heaven. Not accomplishment. The spirit dragging the flesh higher; but spirit alone--empty balloons. A dream in bronze, harder even than men's heads, more durable than their prejudices, so permanent that it will wear out their ignorance; and in the end--always in the end--they'll bring their wreath.
”A replica has gone to Cottarsport, from me; and you ought to see it there, on a block of New England granite. It's in the Common, a windswept reach with low houses and a white steeple and the sea. It might have been there from the beginning, rising on rock against the pale salt day. They can go to h.e.l.l in Hesperia.”
Still Linda's hurt persisted; she saw the unfortunate occurrence as a direct blow at her pride. Arnaud, too, failed her; he was splendid in his a.s.sault upon such rapacious stupidity; but it was only an impersonal concern. His manner expressed the conviction that it might have been expected. He was blind to her special enthusiasm, her long intimate connection with the statue. Exasperated she almost told him that it was more real to her than their house, than Vigne and Lowrie, than he. She was stopped, fortunately, by the perception that, amazingly, the statue was more actual than Dodge Pleydon. It touched the center of her life more nearly.
Why, she didn't know.
If her mental confusion increased by as much as a feeling, Linda thought, she would be close to madness. It was unbearable at practically forty.
Lowrie said, at the worst possible moment, that he found the entire episode ridiculously overemphasized. A statue more or less was of small importance. If the Downige family were upset why didn't they employ an able lawyer to dispose of it? There were many ways for such a proceeding--
”I have no desire to hear them,” she interrupted. ”You seem to know a tremendous lot, but what good it will do you in the end who can say!
And, with all your cleverness, you haven't an ounce of appreciation for art. Besides, I hate to see any one as young as you so sure of himself.
Often I suspect you are patronizing your father and me. It's not pretty nor polite.”
Lowrie was obviously embarra.s.sed by her attack, and managed the abrupt semblance of an apology. Arnaud, who had put down his eternal book, said nothing until the boy had vanished. ”Wasn't that rather sharp?” he asked mildly. ”Perhaps,” she replied in a tone without warmth or regret.
”Somehow I am never comfortable with Lowrie.”
”You are too much alike,” he shrewdly observed. ”It is laughable at times. Did you expect your children to be fountains of sentiment?
And, look here--if I can get along in comfort with you for life you in particular ought to put up peacefully with Lowrie. He is a d.a.m.ned sight more human than, at bottom, you are; a woman of alabaster.”
”I loathe quarrels,” she admitted; ”they are so vulgar. You know that they are not like me and just said so. Oh, Arnaud, why does life get harder instead of easier?”
He put his book aside completely and gazed at her in patient thought.
”Linda,” he said finally, ”I have never heard anything that stirred me so much; not what you said, my dear, but the recognition in your voice.”
A wistfulness of love for her enveloped him; an ineffable desire as vain as the pa.s.sion she struggled to give him in return. She smiled in an unhappiness of apology.
”Perhaps--” he stopped, waiting any a.s.surance whatever, his face eager like a dusty lamp in which the light had been turned sharply up. She was unable to stir, to move her gaze from his hopeful eyes, to mitigate by a breath her slender white aloofness. A smile different from hers, tender with remission, lingered in his fading irradiation. The dusk was gathering, adding its melancholy to his age--sixty-five now. Why that was an old man! Her sympathy vanished in her shrinking from the twilight that was, as well, slowly, inevitably, deepening about her.
It was laughable that, as she approached an age whose only resource was tranquillity, she grew more restless. Her present vague agitation belonged ridiculously to youth. The philosophy of the evident that had supported her so firmly was breaking at the most inopportune time. And it was, she told herself, too late for anything new; the years for that had been spent insensibly with Arnaud. Linda was very angry with herself, for, in all her s.h.i.+fting state of mind, she preserved an inner necessity for the quality of exactness expressed in her clothes. There were literally no neglected s.p.a.ces in her conscious living.
Her thoughts finally centered about the statue in Hesperia--it presented an actual mark for her fleeting resentments. She wondered why it so largely occupied her thoughts, moved her so personally. She watched the papers for the scattered reports of the progress of the contention it had roused, some ill-natured, others supposedly humorous, and nearly all uninformed. She became, Arnaud said, the champion of the esthetic against Dagon. He elaborated this picture until she was forced to smile against her inclination, her profound seriousness. Linda had the feeling that she, too, was on the pedestal that held the bronze effigy of Simon Downige challenging the fog that obscured men. Its fate was hers. She didn't pretend to explain how.
As time pa.s.sed it seemed to her that it took her longer and longer to dress in the morning, while her preparations couldn't be simpler; her habit of deliberation had become nearly a vice, the precision of her ruffles, her hair, a tyranny. She never quite lost the satisfaction of her mirror's faultless reflection; and stopped, now, for a moment's calm interrogation of the being--hardly more silvery cool than the reality--before her.
Arnaud was at the table, and the gaze with which he met her was troubled. The morning paper, she saw, was, against custom, at her place, and she picked it up with an instinctive sense of calamity. The blackly printed sensational headline that immediately established her fear sank vivid and entire into her brain: an anonymous inflamed mob in Hesperia had pulled down and destroyed Pleydon's statue. Their act was described as a tribute to the liberality of the present Downige family in the light of its objection to the monument.