Part 32 (1/2)

”Dowie,” Robin said and she spoke as quietly as Dowie had ever heard her speak in all their life together, ”Donal came.”

”Did he, my lamb?” said Dowie going to her quickly but trying to speak as naturally herself. ”In a dream?”

Robin slowly shook her head.

”I don't think it was a dream. It wasn't like one. I think he was here.

G.o.d sometimes lets them come--just sometimes--doesn't he? Since the War there have been so many stories about things like that. People used to come to see the d.u.c.h.ess and sit and whisper about them. Lady Maureen Darcy used to go to a place where there was a woman--quite a poor woman--who went into a kind of sleep and gave her messages from her husband who was killed at Liege only a few weeks after they were married. The woman said he was in the room and Lady Maureen was quite sure it was true because he told her true things no one knew but themselves. She said it kept her from going crazy. It made her quite happy.”

”I've heard of such things,” said Dowie, valiantly determined to keep her voice steady and her expression unalarmed. ”Perhaps they are true.

Now that the other world is so crowded with those that found themselves there sudden--perhaps they are crowded so close to earth that they try to speak across to the ones that are longing to hear them. It might be.

Lie still, my dear, and I'll bring you a cup of good hot milk to drink.

Do you think you could eat a new-laid egg and a shred of toast?”

”I will,” answered Robin. ”I _will_.”

She sat up in bed and the faint colour on her cheeks deepened and spread like a rosy dawn. Dowie saw it and tried not to stare. She must not seem to watch her too fixedly--whatsoever alarming thing was happening.

”I can't tell you all he said to me,” she went on softly. ”There was too much that only belonged to us. He stayed a long time. I felt his arms holding me. I looked into the blue of his eyes--just as I always did. He was not dead. He was not an angel. He was Donal. He laughed and made me laugh too. He could not tell me now where he was. There was a reason.

But he said he could come because we belonged to each other--because we loved each other so. He said beautiful things to me--” She began to speak very slowly as if in careful retrospection. ”Some of them were like the things Lord Coombe said. But when Donal said them they seemed to go into my heart and I understood them. He told me things about England--needing new souls and new strong bodies--he loved England. He said beautiful--beautiful things.”

Dowie made a magnificent effort to keep her eyes clear and her look straight. It was a soldierly thing to do, for there had leaped into her mind memories of the fears of the great physician who had taken charge of poor young Lady Maureen.

”I am sure he would do that--sure of it,” she said without a tremor in her voice. ”It's only things like that he's thought of his whole life through. And surely it was love that brought him back to you--both.”

She wondered if she was not cautious enough in saying the last word. But her fear was a mistake.

”Yes--_both_,” Robin gave back with a new high bravery. ”Both,” she repeated. ”He will never be dead again. And I shall never be dead. When I could not think, it used to seem as if I must be--perhaps I was beginning to go crazy like poor Lady Maureen. I have come alive.”

”Yes, my lamb,” answered Dowie with fine courage. ”You look it. We'll get you ready for your breakfast now. I will bring you the egg and toast--a nice crisp bit of hot b.u.t.tered toast.”

”Yes,” said Robin. ”He said he would come again and I know he will.”

Dowie bustled about with inward trembling. Whatsoever strange thing had happened perhaps it had awakened the stunned instinct in the girl--perhaps some change had begun to take place and she _would_ eat the bit of food. That would be sane and healthy enough in any case. The test would be the egg and the crisp toast--the real test. Sometimes a patient had a moment of uplift and then it died out too quickly to do good.

But when she had been made ready and the tray was brought Robin ate the small breakfast without shrinking from it, and the slight colour did not die away from her cheek. The lost look was in her eyes no more, her voice had a new tone. The exhaustion of the night before seemed mysteriously to have disappeared. Her voice was not tired and she herself was curiously less languid. Dowie could scarcely believe the evidence of her ears when, in the course of the morning, she suggested that they should go out together.

”The moor is beautiful to-day,” she said. ”I want to know it better. It seems as if I had never really looked at anything.”

One of the chief difficulties Dowie often found she was called upon to brace herself to bear was that in these days she looked so pathetically like a child. Her small heart-shaped face had always been rather like a baby's, but in these months of her tragedy, her youngness at times seemed almost cruel. If she had been ten years old she could scarcely have presented herself to the mature vision as a more touching thing. It seemed incredible to Dowie that she should have so much of life and suffering behind and before her and yet look like that. It was not only the soft curve and droop of her mouth and the lift of her eyes--there was added to these something as indescribable as it was heart-moving. It was the thing before which Donal--boy as he was--had trembled with love and joy. He had felt its tenderest sacredness when he had knelt before her in the Wood and kissed her feet, almost afraid of his own voice when he poured forth his pleading. There were times when Dowie was obliged to hold herself still for a moment or so lest it should break down her determined calm.

It was to be faced this morning when Robin came down in her soft felt hat and short tweed skirt and coat for walking. Dowie saw Mrs. Macaur staring through a window at her, with slightly open mouth, as if suddenly struck with amazement which held in it a touch of shock. Dowie herself was obliged to make an affectionate joke.

”Your short skirts make such a child of you that I feel as if I was taking you out to walk in the park, and I must hold your hand,” she said.

Robin glanced down at herself.

”They do make people look young,” she agreed. ”The Lady Downstairs looked quite like a little girl when she went out in them. But it seems so long since I was little.”