Part 17 (1/2)
Lenox searched his face.
”Ever been through the fire yourself?”
Desmond nodded.
”I suppose moat of us have to go through h.e.l.l once or twice,” he said quietly. ”And I know how it feels to wish that some one would lock up my revolver.”
For answer Lenox got up and paced the room, head down; hands plunged deep into trouser-pockets; lost, by now, to all sense of his incongruous appearance.
The other watched him thoughtfully. Then his hand went to his breast-pocket, and drew out a leather case. A man proffers tobacco to a friend in trouble as instinctively as a woman proffers a caress.
”Have a cheroot?” he said, holding them out: and Lenox checked his pacing.
”Thanks,--no. I've no taste for 'em. Never had.”
”Better cultivate it, then. These are A1 Havannahs. A pa.s.sing extravagance. Good to begin upon. I'd drop pipes for a time, if I were you. When it comes to breaking a habit, a.s.sociation is the devil.
And whatever happens, don't let this heredity bogey get the upper hand of you. The taint you speak of is no more, as yet, than inherited tendency: and this accident--if you believe in accident, I don't--gives you the chance of killing the snake in the egg. Now light up, there's a good chap; just to keep me company.”
Lenox helped himself with a wry face; lit the cigar, and continued his walk. The iron had bitten into his soul: and, at the moment, he was incapable of grat.i.tude. Bit by bit brain and body were adjusting themselves to the new outlook, the new demands enforced upon them; and the process was not a pleasant one.
Suddenly he drew up, and faced his companion.
”You can leave me out of the reckoning now for Chumba and Kajiar,” he said abruptly. ”I'm in no mood for that sort of foolery. I'll stay here and grind at this book of mine instead. You must excuse me to Mrs Desmond; and tell her just as much of the truth as you think fit.”
But before he had finished speaking, Desmond was on his feet, decision in every line of him.
”Not if I know it, my dear fellow! You won't get a stroke of work done just at present; and 'that sort of foolery,' as you call it, will do you all the good in the world. Your best chance is to get right outside yourself; and we'll make it our business to keep you there--Honor and I.”
At that Lenox turned huskily away; and his broken attempt at a laugh was not good to hear.
”d.a.m.n it all, man, why don't you leave me alone, to go to the devil in my own way? What can it matter to you, or to any one, whether I break myself in pieces, or am merely broken on the wheel?”
Desmond's quick ear detected emotion beneath the ungraciousness of speech and tone; and following him, he laid a hand on his shoulder, a friendly liberty to which Lenox was little accustomed.
”Come along home with me,” he said quietly. ”Stay for tiffin, and talk it all out with my wife. She'll be able to answer you far better than I can. Nothing like a woman's sympathy to put a dash of conceit back into a man. Will you follow on? Or shall I wait while you change?”
For an instant Lenox stood silent; then, greatly to his own surprise, he held out his hand.
”I'll be ready in ten minutes,” was all he said.
An hour later, Desmond rode away from Terah Cottage, leaving Lenox and his wife alone together. He had promised to give her what help he could in the delicate task she had set her heart upon: and he belonged to the satisfactory type of man who may be counted upon for good measure, pressed down, and running over.
[1] Has come.
BOOK II.-JUST IMPEDIMENT.
CHAPTER IX.