Chapter 183 - 177: Yings Heart Demon. (1/2)

Ying stood inside her void world with Bing in front of her. She was ready to tell him the feelings she's been holding in her heart ever since she's started to understand them. It was only a matter of time before she could tell him this. For a member of the Yue Family, hesitation is weakness. Weakness will get you killed.

She's had this engrained into her brain ever since she was a little girl. Eliminating all her weaknesses to become a stronger person that won't die a pathetic death. So, there was no other choice for Ying other than telling Bing her feelings. Ying felt that if she didn't tell him soon, she wouldn't be able to bear it anymore and explode or something.

She wasn't the type of person to shy away from her own problems but to tackle them head on and crush them! Any obstacles that stood in her way should only expect to be handled as soon as possible. Procrastination? Forgiveness? Mercy? A member of the Yue Family doesn't know what that is. They only know how to survive and kill!

Bing stood in front of her without saying a word. It made her heart race with him looking at her like this with his deep dark blue eyes. She felt hot and uncomfortable staring back at him. His swirly blue hair that Ying would love to mess around in with her fingers, those thick arms that could easily grab hold of her and hold her close, and that cute kind round face of his. Denying that she likes him would be the same as denying everything she was taught growing up.

”Bing!” Ying shouted.

”Yes, Ying?” He responded with a polite smile.

'Why did he look so manly right now?' Ying could feel her face heating up. ”I like you! So, become my boyfriend, alright?!” It took Ying everything she had to put that out.

Bing didn't respond as he just slowly walked towards her. A different type of smile that Ying couldn't explain popped up on his face. He started to circle around her like she was an object to be inspected and appraised. Was he trying to see the value in her body? The Bing she knew wasn't the type of person to care about something like that, was he?

Ying suddenly began to become self-conscious about her own appearance! For the first time in her life, she started to think about what she looked like to the opposite s.e.x! Not her strength, courage, or cultivation stage, but actual looks! During her time in the Golden Serpent Sect, there have been no men that have tried courting her. But this wasn't to say that she was unattractive and ugly! There were plenty of times where guys said insulting things to her that could be compliments in a way.

”She's got some nice tits on her, huh?”

”She's kind of tall for a girl though.”

”How could I be with a girl that I have to look up to?”

”Maybe if you had an ass, I would be interested, Princess.” Hu Tao's comment also showed up.

”Your feet are kind of big Ying. Kind of like man feet.” Qing's voice popped up.

”Violent women are quite scary.” Bing's voice echoed in her mind.

More and more comments from her past talking about her lackings as a woman began to spring up in her mind. As Bing's hawk-like gaze looked her up and down. There wasn't a time that she felt more like a woman and less than a woman than right now. The way he looked at her made her feel like a thing to be observed than a person but those eyes of his were looking at the things that made her a woman. On his 7th circle around her, Ying got fed up.

She punched Bing in his stupidly cute face and sent him flying across the void world. He flew all the way around the void world and appeared behind her. Ying then caught his big body on the return back, flipped him around and kissed him on his bloody lips. Even if she did hold feelings for him, she wasn't going to let him treat her however he wanted!

”I like you Bing and I won't accept no for an answer.”

”I refuse...” She punched him again, injuring his face even more.

”You can't!” Ying shook him.

Unable to accept that he would ever reject her. Him rejecting her would be the same as saying that her feelings mean nothing to him and she was stupid to ever hold these kinds of feelings for him! If he wasn't going to accept her, she was going to make him accept her! She might not have the greatest butt, kindest personality, and most forgiving nature as a girl but that didn't mean she didn't deserve to be liked. Not every girl needs to be the same! Ying refused to believe that every guy wanted the type of girl that she was the exact opposite of. She sure as hell wasn't going to live the rest of her life trying to become that type of girl.

”Pushy, aggressive, violent, fat boobed, woman like you are the kind I hate the most! You and your pancake ass won't ever be enough for me!” He yelled.

And then it was like a lightning strike inside her head, her Bing wouldn't ever say such a thing to her unless he wanted to die. Everything started clearing up and Ying realized that this wasn't real. This Bing wasn't real. This situation wasn't real. She was in the middle of the Grand Tournament doing the Heart Demon test or whatever. All of this was just showing her the fears she held in her heart. Which made Ying feel very embarrassed once she realized that her biggest Heart Demon was having Bing reject her because of how she looked and acted.