Part 35 (2/2)

”One can never be sure of a woman,” he answered. ”And it would have been so difficult. There was a girl down in Scotland, one of the village girls. It wasn't anything really. We had just been children together.

But they all thought I had gone away to make my fortune so as to come back and marry her--even my mother. It would have looked so mean if after getting on I had married a fine London lady. I could never have gone home again.”

”But you haven't married her--or have you?” asked Joan.

”No,” he answered. ”She wrote me a beautiful letter that I shall always keep, begging me to forgive her, and hoping I might be happy. She had married a young farmer, and was going out to Canada. My mother will never allow her name to be mentioned in our house.”

They had reached the end of the street again. Joan held out her hand with a laugh.

”Thanks for the compliment,” she said. ”Though I notice you wait till you're going away before telling me.”

”But quite seriously,” she added, ”give it a little more thought--the enlisting, I mean. The world isn't too rich in kind influences. It needs men like you. Come, pull yourself together and show a little pluck.” She laughed.

”I'll try,” he promised, ”but it won't be any use; I shall drift about the streets, seeking to put heart into myself, but all the while my footsteps will be bearing me nearer and nearer to the recruiting office; and outside the door some girl in the crowd will smile approval or some old fool will pat me on the shoulder and I shall sneak in and it will close behind me. It must be fine to have courage.”

He wrote her two days later from Ayr, giving her the name of his regiment, and again some six months later from Flanders. But there would have been no sense in her replying to that last.

She lingered in the street by herself, a little time, after he had turned the corner. It had been a house of sorrow and disappointment to her; but so also she had dreamed her dreams there, seen her visions. She had never made much headway with her landlord and her landlady: a worthy couple, who had proved most excellent servants, but who prided themselves, to use their own expression, on knowing their place and keeping themselves to themselves. Joan had given them notice that morning, and had been surprised at the woman's bursting into tears.

”I felt it just the same when young Mr. McKean left us,” she explained with apologies. ”He had been with us five years. He was like you, miss, so unpracticable. I'd got used to looking after him.”

Mary Greyson called on her in the morning, while she was still at breakfast. She had come from seeing Francis off by an early train from Euston. He had sent Joan a ring.

”He is so afraid you may not be able to wear it--that it will not fit you,” said Mary, ”but I told him I was sure it would.”

Joan held our her hand for the letter. ”I was afraid he had forgotten it,” she answered, with a smile.

She placed the ring on her finger and held out her hand. ”I might have been measured for it,” she said. ”I wonder how he knew.”

”You left a glove behind you, the first day you ever came to our house,”

Mary explained. ”And I kept it.”

She was following his wishes and going down into the country. They did not meet again until after the war.

Madge dropped in on her during the week and brought Flossie with her.

Flossie's husband, Sam, had departed for the Navy; and Niel Singleton, who had offered and been rejected for the Army, had joined a Red Cross unit. Madge herself was taking up canteen work. Joan rather expected Flossie to be in favour of the war, and Madge against it. Instead of which, it turned out the other way round. It seemed difficult to forecast opinion in this matter.

Madge thought that England, in particular, had been too much given up to luxury and pleasure. There had been too much idleness and empty laughter: Hitchicoo dances and women undressing themselves upon the stage. Even the working cla.s.ses seemed to think of nothing else but cinemas and beer. She dreamed of a United Kingdom purified by suffering, cleansed by tears; its people drawn together by memory of common sacrifice; cla.s.s antagonism buried in the grave where Duke's son and cook's son would lie side by side: of a new-born Europe rising from the ashes of the old. With Germany beaten, her l.u.s.t of war burnt out, her hideous doctrine of Force proved to be false, the world would breathe a freer air. Pa.s.sion and hatred would fall from man's eyes. The people would see one another and join hands.

Flossie was sceptical. ”Why hasn't it done it before?” she wanted to know. ”Good Lord! There's been enough of it.”

”Why didn't we all kiss and be friends after the Napoleonic wars?” she demanded, ”instead of getting up Peterloo ma.s.sacres, and anti-Corn Law riots, and breaking the Duke of Wellington's windows?”

”All this talk of downing Militarism,” she continued. ”It's like trying to do away with the other sort of disorderly house. You don't stamp out a vice by chivying it round the corner. When men and women have become decent there will be no more disorderly houses. But it won't come before. Suppose we do knock Militarism out of Germany, like we did out of France, not so very long ago? It will only slip round the corner into Russia or j.a.pan. Come and settle over here, as likely as not, especially if we have a few victories and get to fancy ourselves.”

Madge was of opinion that the world would have had enough of war. Not armies but whole peoples would be involved this time. The lesson would be driven home.

”Oh, yes, we shall have had enough of it,” agreed Flossie, ”by the time we've paid up. There's no doubt of that. What about our children? I've just left young Frank strutting all over the house and flouris.h.i.+ng a paper knife. And the servants have had to bar the kitchen door to prevent his bursting in every five minutes and attacking them. What's he going to say when I tell him, later on, that his father and myself have had all the war we want, and have decided there shall be no more? The old folks have had their fun. Why shouldn't I have mine? That will be his argument.”

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