Part 11 (1/2)

”What's so wonderful?” Gregory retorted. ”I saw that she wanted them that day when the shoe peddler was here. I could see it, and you could.”

”Yes.”

”I went across into the woods, and the man overtook me with his wagon. I was tempted, and I bought the slippers of him. I wanted to give them to her then, but I resisted, and I thought I should never give them.

To-day, when I heard that she was going to that dance, I sent them to her anonymously. That's all there is about it.”

The clerk had a moment of bitterness. ”If she'd known it was you, she wouldn't have given them back.”

”That's to be seen. I shall tell her, now. I never meant her to know, but she must, because she's doing you wrong in her ignorance.”

Gregory was silent, and Fane was trying to measure the extent of his own suffering, and to get the whole bearing of the incident in his mind. In the end his attempt was a failure. He asked Gregory, ”And do you think you've done just right by me?”

”I've done right by n.o.body,” said Gregory, ”not even by myself; and I can see that it was my own pleasure I had in mind. I must tell her the truth, and then I must leave this place.”

”I suppose you want I should keep it quiet,” said Fane.

”I don't ask anything of you.”

”And she wouldn't,” said Fane, after reflection. ”But I know she'd be glad of it, and I sha'n't say anything. Of course, she never can care for me; and--there's my hand with my word, if you want it.” Gregory silently took the hand stretched toward him and Fane added: ”All I'll ask is that you'll tell her I wouldn't have presumed to send her the shoes. She wouldn't be mad at you for it.”

Gregory took the box, and after some efforts to speak, he went away.

It was an old trouble, an old error, an old folly; he had yielded to impulse at every step, and at every step he had sinned against another or against himself. What pain he had now given the simple soul of Fane; what pain he had given that poor child who had so mistaken and punished the simple soul! With Fane it was over now, but with Clementina the worst was perhaps to come yet. He could not hope to see the girl before morning, and then, what should he say to her? At sight of a lamp burning in Mrs. Atwell's room, which was on a level with the veranda where he was walking, it came to him that first of all he ought to go to her, and confess the whole affair; if her husband were with her, he ought to confess before him; they were there in the place of the child's father and mother, and it was due to them. As he pressed rapidly toward the light he framed in his thought the things he should say, and he did not notice, as he turned to enter the private hallway leading to Mrs.

Atwell's apartment, a figure at the door. It shrank back from his contact, and he recognized Clementina. His purpose instantly changed, and he said, ”Is that you, Miss Claxon? I want to speak with you. Will you come a moment where I can?”

”I--I don't know as I'd betta,” she faltered. But she saw the box under his arm, and she thought that he wished to speak to her about that, and she wanted to hear what he would say. She had been waiting at the door there, because she could not bear to go to her room without having something more happen.

”You needn't be afraid. I shall not keep you. Come with me a moment.

There is something I must tell you at once. You have made a mistake. And it is my fault. Come!”

Clementina stepped out into the moonlight with him, and they walked across the gra.s.s that sloped between the hotel and the river. There were still people about, late smokers singly, and in groups along the piazzas, and young couples, like themselves, strolling in the dry air, under the pure sky.

Gregory made several failures in trying to begin, before he said: ”I have to tell you that you are mistaken about Mr. Fane. I was there behind the letter boxes when you came in, and I know that you left these shoes because you thought he sent them to you. He didn't send them.”

Clementina did not say anything, and Gregory was forced to ask: ”Do you wish to know who sent them? I won't tell you unless you do wish it.”

”I think I ought to know,” she said, and she asked, ”Don't you?”

”Yes; for you must blame some one else now, for what you thought Fane did. I sent them to you.”

Clementina's heart gave a leap in her breast, and she could not say anything. He went on.

”I saw that you wanted them that day, and when the peddler happened to overtake me in the woods where I was walking, after I left you, I acted on a sudden impulse, and I bought them for you. I meant to send them to you anonymously, then. I had committed one error in acting upon impulse-my rashness is my besetting sin--and I wished to add a species of deceit to that. But I was kept from it until-to-day. I hoped you would like to wear them to the dance to-night, and I put them in the post-office for you myself. Mr. Fane didn't know anything about it. That is all. I am to blame, and no one else.”

He waited for her to speak, but Clementina could only say, ”I don't know what to say.”

”You can't say anything that would be punishment enough for me. I have acted foolishly, cruelly.”

Clementina did not think so. She was not indignant, as she was when she thought Fane had taken this liberty with her, but if Mr. Gregory thought it was so very bad, it must be something much more serious than she had imagined. She said, ”I don't see why you wanted to do it,” hoping that he would be able to tell her something that would make his behavior seem less dreadful than he appeared to think it was.