Part 45 (1/2)
Cyrus Spradling's daughter! At the name, Anne saw again the lank mountaineer of the loose joints and the uncombed hair, who this morning had parted from her mumbling maledictions against Boone.
He had been a mystery then. Now his name falling into the conversation like a sh.e.l.l that has found its range, had the demoralizing force of an explosion. Her belief was no weathervane to veer lightly, but the bruise on her heart was sensitive even to the touch of a breeze, and it was freshly sore.
”Who--ever told you that,” she a.s.severated in slow syllables, ”was a liar. I'd gamble my life on it.” Then having made her confession of faith in those staunch terms, she illogically demanded, ”When was this alleged affair?”
”Just after he finished college, I believe. I can't be quite sure.”
”At that time,” said Anne Masters, ”and before that, and after that, Boone loved me. It was no divided or vacillating love. I'm so sure of him that I'm perfectly willing to stake everything on it. I'm willing, if I'm wrong, even to pay off my mortgage!”
”Since you take that view,” said her father, ”I'm sorry to have repeated the story. I hadn't regarded it as so d.a.m.ning, myself. Young men sometimes love more than once without forfeiting all human respect. You might ask Boone about it? I don't fancy he'd lie to you.”
”I will ask him,” she vehemently declared, ”and if there's any atom of truth in it--and I know there isn't--I don't care whom I marry or what happens afterwards! As to Uncle Tom, I don't think I can go on another day being his charity child.”
”If you don't, you'll break his heart,” her father told her, in a voice of urgent persuasiveness. ”For the present, at least, you must regard what I've told you as Masonically confidential.”
”Why?”
”Because he would see himself as having hurt you where he sought only to be a loving magician with a wand of kindness, and I'm not the man to injure him like that.” He hesitated, and the climax of his statement came with explosive suddenness. ”Good G.o.d, Anne, he's just saved me from disgrace.”
Then came the story of Colonel Wallifarro's latest benefaction, and at the end of it the girl pressed her hands to temples that were hot.
”I think,” she said falteringly, ”I'll go out for a while where the air is fresher. It's very close in here.”
The door closed silently, almost stealthily, behind her, and Masters thought she walked with the noiseless care of one moving in a chamber of death.
CHAPTER x.x.xVI
Anne Masters looked out of the car windows with shadowed and preoccupied eyes on that journey from the mountains back to Louisville. The old conductor who always stopped and chatted with her, after a glance at her expression, punched her ticket and pa.s.sed on. Something was not well with her, he reflected.
To this girl, the joyous sense of freedom had been the essence of life, and now she was going home with the feeling of one who has pa.s.sed under a yoke. It was as if henceforth she were to know the sea which she had adventurously sailed in liberty only from the chained oar bench of the galley slave. She felt humiliated and utterly miserable, and perhaps, worst of all, she was oppressed by an unrelieved realization of her own futility. Beside the competence of the young woman who took dictation at Morgan's desk, her own social accomplishments appeared for the first time summoned for comparison, and the parallel left her branded in her own mind as an economic parasite. Marriage was the one way in which a woman of her sort could finance her life, and the only marriage which for her would be a fulfilment and not a travesty--itself requiring financing--lay remote.
Anne repressed the first indignant impulse to write to Boone of the unjustifiable charge against him to which she had been forced to listen.
There at the capital he was adjusting himself to new duties and settling his shoulders into an unaccustomed harness. She knew that he took these things seriously since he meant to use their opportunities as stepping-stones to broader achievement, and a letter on such a subject would seem hysterical and wanting in faith, when perhaps he was most depending on that faith. Now she told herself that except for having unalterably committed herself to that course with foolish emphasis, she would not even speak incidentally to Boone of the matter. She a.s.sured herself that already she knew the answer and needed no further evidence--but a pledge was a pledge, and she must have the reply to take from his lips to her father.
Yet in the weeks which intervened before that opportunity arrived, the repudiated matter rankled like a poison, which abates none of its malignity because its victim has pasted an innocuous label on the bottle.
So one day, while Anne was being tortured in spirit and was telling herself that she was serenely untroubled, Boone was at the school where Happy Spradling had for some years been a member of the teaching staff.
His eyes were glowing with appreciation as he went about the place, recognizing the magic that had grown there. It had woven its spell out of the dauntless resolution of a little coterie of women who, like unostentatious vestals, had kindled and fed here, where it meant everything, the fire of education and wholesomeness. Surrounded by a hinterland where sloven illiteracy fostered lawlessness, that fire burned in houses that stood up as monuments both of practical utility and surprising beauty. Its light was reflected in keen young faces hungry for education and smiling young eyes in which Boone read the presage of a new future for his people.
Women had done this thing: women for the most part from the Bluegra.s.s who had surrendered ease and chosen effort: women who, out of a volunteer greatness of spirit, elected to ”wait in heavy harness on fluttered folk and wild.”
Boone drew a long breath of silent tribute and homage. It pleased him to think, too, that not all of the magic-makers came from beyond the hills.
Happy was one of them. In these years she had developed until one might not have guessed that she, too, had not come from the source of a gentler rearing. She had met the representative of her district as an old friend, but in no glance or inflection was there a hint that between them lay any buried memory.
”They sent for you to come here,” the girl told him, as she showed him over the redeemed grounds, ”because we want your help. They didn't know that we were old friends, and I didn't mention it. You see what we are trying to do here, but we need roads. A country without highways is a house without windows. That is where you can help us. We're very poor, you know.”