Chapter 478 - You Don“t Love Me Enough (1/2)

Gu Bailu subconsciously pushed him away and ran off. “No, don’t. I’m exhausted after yesterday.”

She really wasn’t in the mood right now.

More accurately, she was even scared that Feng Qingtian would ask for it.

It was a strange feeling. She could let him hug or kiss her, but she couldn’t let him go further.

The feeling had gotten even stronger after she developed a spirit root.

Feng Qingtian was slightly disappointed, but he petted her and said, “You can sleep a while longer. There’s no morning audience today. We’ll meet the emperor at the royal palace later.”

Gu Bailu nodded and hugged him apologetically, hoping that her resistance would erode with time.

Gu Bailu knew that what she was doing was terrible. After Feng Qingtian left, she lay down for some time before getting up again.

What happened in the morning extinguished her excitement of getting a spirit root.

She was a little upset, and felt that she was being too unreasonable.

Feng Qingtian touched Yan Anchun because he had to, and he had done it for her. Why was she so bothered by that?

Most adults had many relations.h.i.+ps before they got married, and few were still virgins by then.

She thought for a while, and loathed herself.

She thought that she was less devoted to Feng Qingtian because she knew that there was nothing Feng Qingtian could do about it. After all, she was all that he had ever had after so many years.

She couldn’t quite figure out her heart. Sometimes she wanted to tell Feng Qingtian that she loved him, or say other sweet things, but it wasn’t an urge to do so.

Didn’t loving someone mean missing them and wanting to be around them all the time?

But she didn’t. She was happy when Feng Qingtian was around, but if he wasn’t, she wouldn’t wonder what he was doing or whether he was with another woman, nor would she want him to go home early to be with her.