Part 37 (1/2)

”Miss Durand, I had to learn. I was forgetting it all. I slipped the last two lines as it was--you know, the 'My uncle's spirit is in these stones' bit. I wasn't hungry.”

”And you were very late, too. What did you have for breakfast?”

An agitated face peered round the corner.

”Miss Durand, which side do I come on from? Hubert's nearly off.”

”The left.” Alwynne hurried to the rescue, dragging Louise after her.

She hustled the anxious courier to his entrance, twitched his mantle into position, and saw him safely on the stage. Then she turned to Louise.

”Louise, will you please go to the kitchen and ask Mrs. Random for two cups of tea and some buns--at once. There is some tea made, I know. I'm tired and thirsty--two cups, please. Bring it to me here, and don't run into any one with your hands full. Be quick--I'm dying for some.”

Louise darted away on her errand. Poor Daffy did look hot and fl.u.s.tered.... Daffy was such a dear ... every one worried her ... it was a shame.... Wouldn't Daffy have been a pleasant mother? Better than shouting Constance.... What was it she had asked for? A plum, a cherry and a fig? No, that wasn't it. Oh, of course, tea--tea and buns.

Alwynne looked after her, smiling and frowning; she was not in the least thirsty. What a baby it was.... But nothing to eat all day! Mrs. Denny ought to be ashamed of herself.... She, Alwynne, would keep a vigilant eye on her to-morrow, poor little soul.... Had she really lost herself so entirely in the part--or was there a touch of pose? No, that was more Agatha's line.... Agatha was enjoying herself.... She listened amusedly, watching through a crack in the screen, till a far-away c.h.i.n.k caught her ear. She went out again into the pa.s.sage, and met Louise with a laden tray.

Alwynne drank with expressive pantomime and motioned to the other cup.

”Drink it up,” she commanded.

”It's a second cup--for you----” began Louise.

”Be a good child and do as you're told! I must fly in a minute.”

The child looked doubtful; but the steaming liquid was tempting and the new-baked, s.h.i.+ning cakes. She obeyed. Alwynne watched the faint colour flush her cheeks with a satisfaction that surprised herself.

”Finish it all up--d'you hear? I must go.” She hesitated: ”Louise--you were very good to-day. I am sure Miss Hartill must have been awfully pleased.”

She went back to the stage. She had had the pleasure of bringing a look of relief to Louise's face. Alwynne could never remember that the kindest lie is a lie none the less.

In the part of Arthur the child, unconsciously, had seen embodied her own psychological situation. She had enacted the spirit, if not the letter, of her own state of mind, and in the mock death had experienced something of the sensations, the sense of release, of a real one. Left to herself, she might gradually have dreamed and imagined and acted herself out of her troubles, have drifted back to real life again, cured and sane. But Alwynne, with her suggestion of good cheer, had destroyed the skin of make-believe that was forming healingly upon the child's sore heart. Louise awoke, with a pang of hope, to her real situation.

”I am sure Miss Hartill must have been awfully pleased.” ... So pleased that, who knew, she might yet forgive the crime of the examination? If it might be.... ”What might be must be,” cried the child within her.

There came a crash of clapping; the rehearsal was over at last, and in a few moments flocks of girls, chattering and excited, came trouping past Louise on their way to tea.

She did not follow them. She was suddenly aware of boy's clothes. She must change them.... She could not find Miss Hartill till she was tidy, and she had determined to speak with her.

Miss Durand had said.... She would do as Arthur did to Hubert--she would besiege Miss Hartill, force her to be kind, till she could say, ”Oh, now you look Miss Hartill! all this while you were disguised.” She s.h.i.+vered at the idea of undergoing once more the emotional experience of the scene--but the vision of Miss Hartill transfigured drew her as a magnet pulls a needle.

She went towards the stairs.

The big music-room at the top of the house had been temporarily converted into a dressing-room, and she thought she would go quickly and change, while it was still quiet and s.p.a.cious. But as she pushed open the swinging doors that divided staircase from pa.s.sage, she saw Clare coming down the long corridor. There was no one else in sight. Again wild, unreasoning hopes flooded her. She would seize the opportunity ...

she would speak to Miss Hartill there and then.... She would ask her why she was always angry.... Perhaps she would be kind? ”I am sure Miss Hartill must have been awfully pleased....” She must have speech with her at once--at once....

She waited, holding open the door, her heart beating violently, her face steeled to composure.

Clare, pa.s.sing with a nod, found her way barred by a white-faced sc.r.a.p of humanity, whose courage, obviously and pitifully, was desperation.

But Clare could be very blind when she did not choose to see.