Part 50 (2/2)

His visit had done no good, had given no heart to the anguished woman or roused no flicker of life in the failing man. Through the weakness of his wasting faculties Courant realized the approach of death and welcomed it. In his forest roamings, before his illness struck him, he had thought of it as the one way out. Then it had come to him vaguely terrible as a specter in dreams. Now bereft of the sustaining power of his strength the burden of the days to come had grown insupportable.

To live without telling her, to live beside her and remain a partial stranger, to live divorcing her from all she would desire, had been the only course he saw, and in it he recognized nothing but misery. Death was the solution for both, and he relinquished himself to it with less grief at parting from her than relief at the withdrawal from an existence that would destroy their mutual dream. What remained to him of his mighty forces went to keep his lips shut on the secret she must never know. Even as his brain grew clouded, and his senses feeble, he retained the resolution to leave her her belief in him. This would be his legacy. His last gift of love would be the memory of an undimmed happiness.

But Susan, unknowing, fought on. The doctor had not got back to the Porter Ranch before she began arranging to move Low to Sacramento and from there to the Coast. He would get better care, they would find more competent doctors, the change of air would strengthen him. She had it out with Bella, refusing to listen to the older woman's objections, pus.h.i.+ng aside all references to her own health. Bella was distracted. ”For,” as she said afterwards to Glen, ”what's the sense of having her go? She can't do anything for him, and it's like as not the three of them'll die instead of one.”

There was no reasoning with Susan. The old willfulness was strengthened to a blind determination. She plodded back through the rain to Daddy John and laid the matter before him. As of old he did not dispute with her, only stipulated that he be permitted to go on ahead, make arrangements, and then come back for her. He, too, felt there was no hope, but unlike the others he felt the best hope for his Missy was in letting her do all she could for her husband.

In the evening, sitting by the fire, they talked it over--the stage down the river, the stop at the Fort, then on to Sacramento, and the long journey to the seaport settlement of San Francisco. The sick man seemed asleep, and their voices unconsciously rose, suddenly dropping to silence as he stirred and spoke:

”Are you talking of moving me? Don't. I've had twelve years of it.

Let me rest now.”

Susan went to him and sat at his feet.

”But we must get you well,” she said, trying to smile. ”They'll want you in the pits. You must be back there working with them by the spring.”

He looked at her with a wide, cold gaze, and said:

”The spring. We're all waiting for the spring. Everything's going to happen then.”

A silence fell. The wife sat with drooped head, unable to speak.

Daddy John looked into the fire. To them both the Angel of Death seemed to have paused outside the door, and in the stillness they waited for his knock. Only Courant was indifferent, staring at the wall with eyes full of an unfathomable unconcern.

The next day Daddy John left. He was to find the accommodations, get together such comforts as could be had, and return for them. He took a sack of dust and the fleetest horse, and calculated to be back inside two days. As he clattered away he turned for a last look at her, standing in the suns.h.i.+ne, her hand over her eyes. Man or devil would not stop him, he thought, as he buckled to his task, and his seventy years sat as light as a boy's twenty, the one pa.s.sion of his heart beating life through him.

Two days later, at sundown, he came back. She heard the ringing of hoofs along the trail and ran forward to meet him, catching the bridle as the horse, a white lather of sweat, came to a panting halt. She did not notice the lined exhaustion of the old man's face, had no care for anything but his news.

”I've got everything fixed,” he cried, and then slid off holding to the saddle for he was stiff and spent. ”The place is ready and I've found a doctor and got him nailed. It'll be all clean and s.h.i.+pshape for you.

How's Low?”

An answer was unnecessary. He could see there were no good tidings.

”Weaker a little,” she said. ”But if it's fine we can start to-morrow.”

He thought of the road he had traveled and felt they were in G.o.d's hands. Then he stretched a gnarled and tremulous claw and laid it on her shoulder.

”And there's other news, Missy. Great news. I'm thinking that it may help you.”

There was no news that could help her but news of Low. She was so fixed in her preoccupation that her eye was void of interest, as his, bright and expectant, held it:

”I seen David.”

He was rewarded. Her face flashed into excitement and she grabbed at him with a wild hand:

”David! Where?”

”In Sacramento. I seen him and talked to him.”

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