Part 2 (1/2)

”I don't know, man,” Perry said, dragging out the man in imitation of that East Coast accent. ”How'd you get so f.u.c.king cynical?”

”Native intelligence. Born with it,” Craig said without missing a beat. He never missed a beat. He had a whole encyclopedia of comebacks on the tip of his tongue at all times.

”Is it a burden,” Perry asked, ”being so much better than everyone else? Or is it pleasing?”

”I'm so used to it by now,” Craig said, ”I really couldn't say.”

Perry sat down on his own bed and unzipped his backpack. You could have drawn a line straight down the center of the room. Every time some piece of Craig's laundry or a magazine or a discarded protein bar wrapper inched over onto Perry's side, he carefully pushed it back over to Craig's side with his foot.

”Your mom called,” Craig said. ”I told her you were out trying to score some heroin, but you'd be back in an hour or so.”

”Thanks.”

”Here,” Craig said. ”You can call her from my cell in the lounge if you want some privacy.” He tossed the phone, slightly larger than a matchbook and just as thin, to Perry. It had been a source of endless surprise to Craig Clements-Rabbitt that Perry didn't own a cell phone and was dependent on the antique mounted to the wall of their room. Craig did not, himself, even know their phone number, and had only touched the telephone in the room to take calls for Perry.

”Thanks,” Perry said. He took the phone, stood, and closed the door behind him.

”Mom?”

There was no one else in the second-floor lounge, so Perry lay back on the blue couch, careful to keep his shoes from touching the cus.h.i.+ons.

He and his mother talked about his cla.s.ses, his grandfather, his father's business-a lawn mower shop, the best one in town-and about the weather, which had been beautiful. The leaves in Bad Axe had changed dramatically already, she said, and were starting to fall, and she joked that she supposed she was going to have to do the raking now, with Perry at college.

”I can come home for a weekend,” he said, ”if I can get a ride.”

”Don't be ridiculous,” his mother said. ”We can handle the leaves. You just get good grades.”

Perry was an only child-except that there'd been another, a sister before him, who'd died at birth, a baby his mother had never once spoken of to him. The only reason Perry knew about her was because his grandmother, when he was nine, had decided Perry needed to know.

Since he'd been a toddler, Perry'd had an imaginary sister whose name was Mary.

He was getting too old for imaginary playmates, his grandmother told him one day, and G.o.d knows what it must be doing to his parents, listening to him in his room, talking for hours to that imaginary girl. Unlike the other adults in Perry's life, Grandma Edwards pulled no punches just because he was a child. She was the one who'd told him that his grandfather had been an alcoholic, and that his Uncle Benny took after him, a s...o...b..ring drunk, and that's why he was never invited for Christmas dinner. She was the one who would, eventually, tell him that she herself was dying of bladder cancer, not ”recuperating” in the hospital, as his parents had said.

So Grandma Edwards took him to the grave-a flat, s.h.i.+ning stone engraved with ”Baby Girl Edwards,” and a date that meant nothing to Perry-and that very day, his imaginary friend Mary had vanished, as if the imaginary could die as easily as the actual. Perry almost never thought about her again, except on the rare occasion that her translucently pale skin would come back to him, and the way her soft, cool, imaginary hand had felt on his, guiding it across a piece of paper, teaching him how to draw a dinosaur.

And the scent of her hair-that red tangle of curls-like warm earth.

”I love you, Mom,” Perry said before hanging up.

”I love you, Perry,” his mother said.

”Tell Dad I love him.”

”He loves you, too.”

A few more good-byes, back and forth, and Perry snapped Craig's snazzy cell phone shut, rose from the couch, and headed back. A few students pa.s.sed him on the way-strangers, but strangers he recognized now from the hallways, from the cafeteria. One guy, with wire-frame gla.s.ses, Perry recognized from a cla.s.s, although he couldn't remember which one. They nodded seriously, politely, to each other.

The stairwell was empty when he got there. He could hear his own steps ringing around him, and as he climbed to the fourth floor, he suddenly was struck with a terrible grieflike longing for his mother, home alone in their two-bedroom bungalow. What would she do now that their phone call was over? Call her own mother? Watch television?

And there was grief for his father, too, still at the shop. He might be trying to fix something, or sell something, or schedule some kid to work on Sat.u.r.day now that Perry was gone.

He thought about his grandfather, too, sitting on the bench in the hallway of Whitcomb Manor, already looking forward to Sunday, when Perry's parents would pick him up to go to Dumplings.

And then he was feeling sorry for the whole town of Bad Axe. The drugstore. The pizza place. The brick facades of the few, desperate businesses downtown. The strip malls at the edge of everything. The cemetery with its little flags and flowers stuck into the soft, green ground. The women at Fantastic Sam's, staring out at the parking lot, waiting for someone with too much hair to come inside.

Homesick. Now he knew what that was. And as soon as he stepped out of the stairwell, eyes fogged with emotion, Perry realized how stupid he was being, and rubbed away his ridiculous, homesick tears. Sentimental c.r.a.p. The only other Eagle Scout from his troop in Bad Axe was already in the Marines, sent off to Afghanistan. That guy had something to get teary about, not Perry.

A girl in a miniskirt rounded the corner of the hallway, laughing hysterically into her cell phone. She didn't even glance at him. When Perry rounded the corner himself, he saw that the door to his dorm room was open, and someone was standing in it.

And then he saw who it was.

The bright blond ponytail. The perfect posture.

Nicole Werner.

She turned when Perry came up behind her, and she said, ”Hi!” in that voice so bright and girlish it sounded like it was coming out of a piccolo.

”Hi,” Perry said back, sounding like a party p.o.o.per in comparison, but who could compete with Nicole Werner when it came to congeniality? He saw Craig, still in his boxer shorts, no s.h.i.+rt, standing a few feet in front of her.

”I came by to see, you know, how it's going,” she said to Perry, but glanced back at Craig as if trying politely to include him in the conversation. ”You know, see if you'd want to set up a study time . . .”

”Oh. Yeah,” Perry said. He'd forgotten. They'd talked about this back in Bad Axe-after they'd both gotten their acceptance letters, but before she'd been awarded the Ramsey Luke. They'd said they'd keep up the ritual, the weekly study marathons. ”Okay,” he said, and shrugged.

Craig caught Perry's eye then, and Nicole looked from Perry to him. ”You're welcome to join us,” she said to Craig.

Craig nodded, appeared to consider it, and then said, ”That would be helpful. I could use the support, you know, to keep up the good study habits.”

Nicole nodded. She'd obviously missed the false note, and the fact that Craig Clements-Rabbitt was half-naked, having been lying in bed with an iPod and Brain Freeze at eight o'clock on a Tuesday night. ”Great!” she said. ”So, now we just need a time and a place.” She whipped her academic planner out from under her arm in a flash, and slid out a pen conveniently tucked into her ponytail. She stuck the pen in her mouth as she scanned the pages of the planner.

”I'm free anytime,” Craig said.

Perry rolled his eyes.

4.

Maybe her students thought she was deaf. They could chase her down a hallway for half a mile calling out, Professor? Professor?”and it did not occur to Mira to turn around.

Professor?

That couldn't be her.

But here she was, a professor at one of the largest universities in the world. They called her a cultural anthropologist, as if that were an occupation. She was an ”Expert on the Treatment of Human Remains in Preliterate Civilizations”-the way her father had been an Insurance Salesman, or her mother, a Homemaker.

She was thirty-three, the mother of two-year-old twins, the wife of a Nice Guy who happened to be content in the role of Stay-at-Home Dad. She'd gotten her Ph.D. with honors and kudos and special awards: a Fulbright to Croatia, and even the unheard-of Guggenheim for a graduate student. Her dissertation, Traditional Burial Practices and Their Folk Origins: Fear, Fantasy, and the Cults of Death, had been published by a major academic press just a few months after she'd finished it. There'd been positive reviews in the specialized journals, and even a quick notice in a newspaper or two because of popular interest in her subject.

So, why, when they called out, ”Professor!” did Mira not a.s.sume they were calling out to her? Why, day after day in that place, did she feel like such a fraud?