Part 45 (2/2)

Instead of chattering with the _forcats_, a.s.sa.s.sins, robbers, and scoundrels of all denominations and varieties of crime who were his fellow-prisoners, Hugh, in the brief half-hour's respite, usually came daily to the same spot, to reflect upon his position, and try to devise some means of escape.

His conviction and transportation had been so rapid that only a confused recollection of it existed in his memory. He remembered the a.s.size Court--how the sun insolently, ironically, cast his joyous, sparkling beams into the gloomy, densely packed apartment. The hall, dismal and smoke-begrimed, is anything but imposing at best, but it was filled with the foetid exhalations from the crowd that had long taken up every vacant s.p.a.ce. The gendarmes at his side looked at one another and smiled. The evidence was given--what it was he did not thoroughly understand--yet he, an upright man, resolute, honest to the very soul, and good-natured to simplicity, found himself accused of complicity in the murder of a man he had never heard of. Despondent at Valerie's desertion, he took no steps to defend himself; he was heedless of everything.

Then the verdict was p.r.o.nounced, and the sentence--fifteen years' penal servitude!

He heard it, but in his apathetic frame of mind he was unaffected by it.

He smiled as he recognised how mean was this noted Criminal Court of the Seine, with its paltry chandelier, the smoky ceiling, and the battered crucifix that hung over the bench on which the judges sat in their scarlet robes. Suddenly he thought of Valerie. Surely she would know through the newspapers that his trial was fixed for that day? Why did she not come forward and a.s.sist him in proving his innocence.

He strained his eyes among the sea of faces that were turned towards him with the same inquisitive look. She was not there.

”Prisoner, have you anything to say?” asked the presiding judge, when he delivered sentence.

The question fell upon Hugh's ears and roused him. The thought that Valerie had made no sign since his arrest, although he had written to her, again recurred to him. The die was cast. What probability, what hope, was there of liberty? For the twentieth time, perhaps, this cruel agony, this doubt as to Valerie's faithfulness, returned to him. She was absent; she had forsaken him.

”Will you answer me, prisoner? Have you anything to say?” repeated the judge sternly.

”I wish to say nothing, except that I am entirely innocent.”

Then they hurried him back to his cell.

He had a hazy recollection of a brief incarceration in the Toulon convict prison, after which came the long voyage to La Nouvelle, and the settlement into the dull, hopeless existence he was now leading--a life so terrible that more than once he longed for death instead.

Sitting there that evening, he was thinking of his wife, refusing even then to believe that she had willingly held aloof from him. He felt confident that by some unfortunate freak of fate she had been unaware of his arrest, and might still be searching for him in vain. Perhaps the letters he wrote to her to the hotel and to Coombe might never have been posted. If they had not, there was now no chance of sending a message home, for one of the rules observed most strictly in the penal colony is that letters from convicts to their friends are forbidden. The unfortunate ones are completely isolated from the world. The families of French prisoners sent out to the Pacific Islands can obtain news of them at the Bureau of Prisons in Paris, but nowhere else. When convicts are handed over to the governor of the colony, their names are not given; they are known henceforth by numbers only.

Convict number 3098 knew that it was useless to hope any longer, yet it was almost incredible, he told himself, that he, an innocent man and an English subject, should be sent there to a living tomb for an offence that he did not commit--for the murder of a person whose name he had never before heard.

”I wonder where Valerie is now?” he said aloud, giving vent to a long-drawn sigh. ”I wonder whether she ever thinks about me? Perhaps she does; perhaps she is wearing her heart out scouring every continental city in a futile endeavour to find me; perhaps--perhaps she'll think I'm dead, and after a year or two of mourning marry some one else.”

He uttered the words in a low voice, more marked by suffering than by resignation. He preferred the companions.h.i.+p of his own thoughts, sad as they were; his mind always turned to Valerie, to the sad ruin of all his hopes.

”And Jack Egerton,” he continued, resting his chin upon his hands; ”he must know, too, that I have disappeared. Will he seek me? Yet, what's the use of hoping--trusting in the impossible--no one would dream of finding me in a French convict prison. No,” he added bitterly, ”I must abandon hope, which at best is but a phantom pursued by eager fools. I must cast aside all thought of returning to civilisation, to home--to Valerie. I've seen her--seen her for the last time! No, it can't be that we shall ever meet--that I shall ever set eyes again upon the woman who is more to me than life itself!”

He paused. In his ears there seemed to ring a little peal of Valerie's silvery laughter, which mocked the chill, dead despair that had buried itself so deeply in his heart.

The tears sprang to his eyes, but he wiped them away with a brusque movement, and looked about abstractedly. The sun had set behind the crags, and had been succeeded by the soft tropical twilight. A faint breeze was abroad. The sough of the leaves above was lost in the gurgling of the mountain torrent as it rushed over its rocky bed. The palms, played upon by the wind, made a sound of their own. It was silence in the midst of sound, and sound in the midst of silence-- majestic, contradictory, although natural.

”And I shall never see her again!” he murmured. ”I shall remain here working and living from day to day, a blank, aimless existence until I die. I've heard it said that Fate puts her mark on those she intends to strike, and the truth of that I've never recognised until now. I remember what a strange apprehensive feeling came over me on the night we left London for Paris--a kind of foreboding that misfortune was upon me, a strange presage of evil. Again, that warning of Dolly's was curious. I wonder what was contained in that newspaper report that she so particularly desired me to see? I'm sure Dolly loved me. If I had married her, perhaps, after all, I should have been happier. It was inflicting an absolute cruelty upon her when I cast her aside and married Valerie. Yet she bore it silently, without complaint, although I'm confident it almost broke her heart, poor girl!”

Sighing heavily, he pa.s.sed his grimy, blistered hand wearily across his forehead.

”To think that I'm dead to them; that we shall never again meet! It seems impossible, although it's the plain, undisguised truth. That canting old priest told me yesterday that G.o.d would extend His mercy to those of us who sought it. Bah! I don't believe it. If the circ.u.mstances of our lives were controlled by the Almighty, He would never allow an innocent man like myself to suffer such punishment unjustly. No,” he declared in a wild outburst of despair, ”the belief that G.o.d is Master of the world is an exploded fallacy. What proof have we of the existence of a Supreme Being? None. What proof of a life hereafter? None. Religion is a mere sentimental pastime for women and fools. For priests to try and convert convicts is a sorry, miserable farce. There is no G.o.d!”

Several minutes elapsed, during which he thought seriously upon the mad words that had escaped him. The recollection of the religious teaching he had received at his mother's knee came back to him. He had often jested at holy things, but never before had he been smitten by conscience as now.

”Suppose--suppose, after all, there is an Almighty Power,” he said thoughtfully, in an awed voice. ”Suppose it is enabled to direct circ.u.mstances and control destiny. In that case G.o.d could give me freedom. He could give Valerie back to me, and I should return home and resume the perfect happiness that was so brief and so suddenly dispelled. Ah! if such things could be! And--why not? My mother--did she not believe in G.o.d? Were not the words she uttered with her dying breath a declaration of implicit trust in Him? Did she not die peacefully because of her firm, unshaken faith?”

Jumping to his feet with a sudden resolution, he stretched forth his hands in supplication to heaven, exclaiming, in a hoa.r.s.e, half-choked whisper--

”I--I believe--yes, I believe there's a Ruling Power. No! I'll not abandon all hope yet.”

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