13 13. WALKING AROUND THE MARKE (1/2)
Thankfully, I was spared from my mortal embarrassment.. I can't blame my kids since they always heard us adult talking about my problem back in earth.
The first three years after my traumatic experience.. I couldn't get near with guys. Especially those with imposing and big body type man. Sometimes, those that had that dangerous or alpha vibes on them scared me miles away. Its like I was suddenly gifted with alpha-man radar. Any sudden movement caused me twitching and fall. I hate how scaredy-cat I had become. From a confident woman to a broken and scared soul. Pathetic.
Thankfully, I got some of those who never gives up on healing me. They motivate and keep on resetting my thinking and perspective about life.. then I started to train myself to talk to the opposite gender more. Sit beside them and shake hand with them. Now I can confidently say I'm back to normal albeit extra wall around me, but still normal in any way.
Though.. I never tried any intimate stuff with guys since I was too busy to get my life in order and raising my kids.. and that scared me the most.
I don't want to show Kuro my weak side. He might used it against me.. who knows?a guy that I've known for three years that act so sweet and kind could be a devil in a second, whats more a stranger that I just met? It might cost not only my life but my kids too.
”So, here is the street vendors.. wait, kids.. take this” he gave each of them a little token of jade that had a red silk clothing tying through it and a small bag of money.
”You can easily get lost around here.keep this with you, and don't lose it. I'll always find you” said Kuro gently.
Ailee raised it up and look at it.
”So, its like a gps tracker huh?”
”A what?”
”Gps tracker. It's a science thingy where you can trace the location using an object”
”That's sounds like it.”
”Cool. So we can look around, right mom?” I bite my lips and look around.
”Sure, but not too far” I nodded and smile. They waved and start running toward the street vendors that sold a lot of colorful things.
I stopped and turn my body to look at him.
”Talk. Why did you bait the kids away?”
”I simply want to have an adult talk with my wife”
”What kind of adult talk?”
”What kind that do you want?” I narrowed my eyes.
”Is it your habits to answer people's question with another question?”
”I don't know, maybe?” Another question and I rolled my eyes.
”I'm looking forward to know you better, Iiana”
”Yay..” Not even an ounce of excitement and then I choose to zoned him out from my peripheral.