16 Chapter 15 (1/2)

It still haunts me, it forever will. I knew I would never forget that sound, even if I lived a hundred lives.

I didn't want to go in, I wanted to see her but I didn't think I could. I felt like as long as I don't see her that way I can pretend like it didn't happen. But I knew I had to do it, I had to go in. If not for Lena, at least I should for Liam.

The moment they removed the sheet that covered her face, Liam broke down. He sobbed, he weep, he wailed. I stood there dumbfounded, watching them. It was his cries that rang in my head. It broke my heart, it broke me. Hearing the pain, the heartbreak in his voice, my eyes could no longer hold the tears that streamed down my face.

I don't know how long we stayed there, with Liam and I hugging Lena, her body. Liam cried until there were no more tears, until he had no more voice.

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”Darling, come on.”

I looked up from my trance, and was met by my face in the mirror. My mother put her arms around me. ”It's time to go.”

My mother arrived just a few hours ago, I haven't even spoken to her properly yet. I didn't know what to tell her anyway. She understood, she was there to comfort me.

I mustered all my energy to get myself to stand up. I can't take it, tears threatened to fall but I pushed it back. I followed my mom out of the room, out of the hotel where all the staff watched me, they were all wearing black I noted, I avoided their eyes, I hated the way they looked at me. With concern, so much concern, and pity. I quickly got in the car that was waiting at the front of the hotel, trying to get away from their gaze.

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We made our way to the front, Liam greeted me and introduced me to some relatives, they all hugged me and thanked me, I wondered what for, but I just didn't have the energy and strength to even ask. I looked at their eyes searching for something, though beautiful, none of their eyes were like Lena's. They ranged from green to brown, no one even close to Lena and Liam's.

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”It's pretty rare. Aside from me and Liam, my great grand mother and her great great grandfather are the only ones to have them in our family.” I remember Lena telling me once when I commented on her eyes.

”Yeah, I googled it, apparently it's the rarest color.” I can't help but stare at them.

”You googled it?” She tilted her head, one eyebrow raised.

”Yeah, I thought maybe you were some sort of mystical creature or something.” I joked.

Lena laughed, hitting me lightly in the shoulders.

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