Chapter 220 - I Can Change (1/2)

Sparkling, translucent teardrops began streaking across Bai Wu’s cheek; they fell silently onto the floor. It was like a thousand catties worth of force smashing into Xu Lan’s heart and destroying it beyond recognition. He stared inanimately at the profusely-tearing Bai Wu.

“I- I did that for your good,” Xu Lan explained hoarsely.

“I know it’s for my good. Papa’s always considerate toward me, and Papa even wanted to find a girlfriend for me! But have you ever considered how I feel?” Akin to the lamentable groan of a dragon, Bai Wu asked disappointedly.

“They all said I’ve never given you a sense of security. Is that true?” Xu Lan questioned uneasily.

“Yes! Never! Never have you ever! You blindly impose upon me what you think is best for me, but you not once have you considered whether it was something I really wanted! Xu Lan, I’m no longer your son, I’m your lover! We are equals!”

Bai Wu roared hysterically at Xu Lan. It was the first time Xu Lan saw him react that way.

“What should I do then?” Xu Lan trembled as he took the cigarette from his ear. He tried lighting it a few times but was unable to do so.

“Can you not be so rational? Just depend on me a bit more, trust in me a bit more, and show your love for me a bit more. Just a bit more will do…” Bai Wu raised his head up and wept in sorrowful desperation.

“I do love you! Why does everyone say that I don’t! What else am I supposed to do for you to believe me!” Hard-pressed, Xu Lan stood up and begrudgingly bellowed.

“I can no longer tolerate being treated as a son and being given familial love. My heart is tired of wearing this mask, but I can’t take it down. I can’t keep deceiving others and myself, and you’ve never tried reversing our roles.” The tearful Bai Wu looked directly at Xu Lan and sobbed while making that remark.

“F*ck, I’ve never seen anyone show their assh*le to their son! Would I let you f*ck me if I treated you as a son? Before all that, I was truly unable to differentiate my feelings, Bai Wu!”

Xu Lan erupted in shouts and pulled Bai Wu closer by grabbing his shirt collar.