Part 37 (1/2)

”One goes mighty far in five years, Bella.... One loses many things.”

”I know--Gardiner and your mother. But who else?”

He saw her face sadden; the young girl extended her hand to him, her eyes darkened.

”Who else?” she breathed.

Fairfax put out his arms toward her, but did not enfold her. He let his hands rest on her shoulders and murmured, ”Bella, little Bella,” and choked the other words back.

”No,” she said, ”I'm not little Bella any more. Please answer me, Cousin Antony.”

He could not have told her for his life. He could tell her nothing; her charm, her lifted face, beautiful, ardent, were the most real, the most vital things the world had ever held for him. The fascination found him under his new grief. He exclaimed, turning brusquely toward his covered scaffolding--

”Don't you want to see my work, Bella? I've been at it nearly a year.”

He rapidly drew the curtain and exposed his bas-relief.

There was in the distance a vague indication of distant sky-line--a far horizon--upon which, into which, a door opened, held ajar by a woman's arm and hand. The woman's figure, draped in the clinging garment of the grave, was pa.s.sing through, but in going her face was turned, uplifted, to look back at a man without, who, apparently unconscious of her, gazed upon life and the world. That was all--the two figures and the feeling of the vast illimitable far-away.

It seemed to Fairfax as he unveiled his work that he looked upon it himself for the first time; it seemed to him finished, moreover, complete. He knew that he could do nothing more with it. He heard Bella ask, ”Who is it, Cousin Antony? It is perfectly beautiful!” her old enthusiasm soft and warm in her voice.

At her repeated question, ”Who is it?” he replied, ”A dream woman.” And his cousin said, ”You have lovely dreams, but it is too sad.”

He told her for what it was destined, and she listened, musing, and when she turned her face to him again there were tears in her eyes. She pointed to the panel.

”There should be a child there,” she said, with trembling lips. ”They go in too, Cousin Antony.”

”Yes,” he responded, ”they go in too.”

He crossed the floor with her toward the door, neither of them speaking.

She drew on her gloves, but at the door he said--

”Stop a moment. I'm going a little way with you.”

”No, Cousin Antony, you can't. Myra Scutfield, my best friend, is waiting for me with her brother. I'm supposed to be visiting her for Sunday. You mustn't come.”

Her hand was on the door latch. He gently took her hand and pushed it aside. He did not wish her to open that door or to go through it alone.

As they stood there silent, she lifted her face and said--

”I'm going away for the Easter holidays. Kiss me good-bye.”

And he stooped and kissed her--kissed Bella, the little cousin, the honey child--no, kissed Bella, the woman, on her lips.

CHAPTER x.x.xVI

From the window he watched her fly up the street like a scarlet bird, and realized what a child she was still, and, whereas he had felt a hundred that day at church, he now felt as old as the ancient Egyptians, as the Sphinx, a Sage in suffering and knowledge of life, beside his cousin. He called her little, but she was tall and slender, standing as high as his shoulder.