Part 28 (1/2)
David slammed the bathroom door behind him. He looked in the mirror and saw an old man. He was twenty-nine years old and his face was haggard and lined. His dark hair was a wild, matted mess around his head. After four days without sleep, he looked like a corpse.
”David?” Lydia stood outside the bathroom door. Her voice was m.u.f.fled.
”What.” David stated it rather than asked.
”It's getting worse.”
”What's getting worse?” he asked her, knowing full well what she meant. He wanted her to say it aloud. Wanted her to tell him to leave. If she did, maybe he'd have the courage to do it.
”The ... cycles,” she said. ”How quickly you move up through the highs and slip back down. The doctors said this might happen. They said if you didn't stay on your meds-”
”I know what they f.u.c.king said!” David snapped. ”Don't you think I know? I'm the one they talk to.”
She sighed. ”They talk to me, too. When you're strapped down to a bed having sedatives shot into your arm, they're talking to me. They told me it's possible this could keep getting worse and worse if you don't control it.” Her voice elevated and then caught in her throat. ”I don't want Eden to see this. I don't think she'll survive.”
David turned around and pressed his forehead against the door, holding on to the handle. He wanted to let her in. He wanted to have her take him in her arms and hold him the way she used to hold him. back when they first met. back when his mind was still his own. ”What won't she survive?” he said. His voice was very small.
”You, David. I don't think she'll survive you.”
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