Part 20 (1/2)
”I thought not. I am truly sorry.”
She looked at him and smiled wanly, feeling older than she ever had before. Possibly even a little wiser-if that was possible. ”Are you crazy?” she asked him finally, finding her voice. ”You saved my life, Connal.”
”Oh, I am most definitely not sorry about that!” he said, grinning a little. Then his expression s.h.i.+fted. ”I think, though, that I was only returning a favour, was I not?”
Clare blinked at him. ”How did you know?”
”The rest of them couldn't see you hiding behind 'Andrasta' in the back of that boat, Clarinet, but I could.”
Of course he could. Clare had hoped he'd been too hopped up on whatever mystical narcotics they'd shovelled into him to notice. She wondered if Lla.s.sar had seen her too.
”Don't be mad,” she said. ”I know you keep saying it was your destiny and everything, but-”
He shook his head. ”If it was so, I would be dead even now.” He toyed with one of the bracelets on his wrist, his expression thoughtful.
Clare followed his gaze. The matched silver cuffs were works of art-with knotted designs that looked like stylized ravens chasing foxes, or maybe the other way around.
”Those are beautiful,” Clare said.
”Boudicca had Lla.s.sar make them for me,” he said softly, a touch of something that sounded like regret in his voice. ”She has had him make ... a lot of things.”
”He's a talented guy,” Clare said.
Connal nodded. ”Lla.s.sar's gift is great. His magic, powerful. He is one of the only Druiddyn left I know of who can work the blood magic. The Raven's magic. And although he does not do it lightly, he does it for her. For Boudicca.”
”Why do you sound as if that's a bad thing?”
”Blood magic has consequences, Clarinet. Sometimes unexpected ones. But she asks it of him because it is a hard temptation to resist. Especially when one is as wounded in spirit as Boudicca is.” Connal shrugged as if there was a heavy weight on his shoulders he needed to s.h.i.+ft. ”Blood magic offers the pathway to retribution in her eyes. But I fear this war of hers may be one of those consequences. Andrasta-the real Andrasta-does not give without taking her Raven's share.”
In the far distance they could hear the faint cries of those still fighting and dying in the forest. A look flashed across Connal's face that told Clare he wished he was fighting too. Alongside his queen. Or as her spirit warrior, maybe.
”Connal, I hate to tell you this,” Clare said, ”I really do. But even when you did lead her spirit warriors, it didn't matter. Boudicca still lost.”
He frowned at her, confused. ”What do you mean-even when I did lead them?”
”I mean the Iceni aren't going to win this war. With or without your sacrifice.”
”You have seen this? In your ... distant future?”
”Yes. Sorry.” She watched a flurry of emotions twist across his handsome face. ”But listen, it's not ... they don't conquer everything. I mean, the Romans don't get the whole island. Parts of the west stay unconquered. The Celts fight ... they hide. And in the end, a lot of years from now but in the end, the Roman Empire goes down itself and fades away. And please don't tell anyone that because I'm pretty sure I've already drastically altered history as it is.”
”Clarinet. I've never met anyone like you.”
”I can believe that.” Clare had come a long way from thinking of herself as just an average teenager from Toronto. She laughed a little. ”I'm the kind of girl a guy like you only meets once every-I don't know-never?”
”Will you stay and help us fight this fight?”
”I can't. This isn't my world, Connal.”
He reached up and put a hand on either side of her face. ”But you keep coming back. Something draws you here ...”
A s.h.i.+ver ran up Clare's spine as Connal tilted his head and pulled her closer. Despite the powerful attraction she felt for him, she couldn't help thinking about Comorra and how she felt about him. Clare reached up to push Connal's hands away, her fingertips brus.h.i.+ng the cold metal of his silver bracelets.
Suddenly the s.h.i.+ver turned to s.h.i.+mmer and Clare jerked her hand back, startled, as the familiar, electrified jolt of energy flooded up her arm.
”What the h.e.l.l?” Clare glanced back and forth from her fingertips to Connal's silver bracelet. His wrist cuffs weren't just made by Lla.s.sar. They were tied to her, somehow. Specifically. They were s.h.i.+mmer triggers, too-just as the torc and the s.h.i.+eld and Comorra's brooch were. Why? How?
She stared at Connal, waiting for an explanation. The Druid prince looked wary and, for some reason Clare couldn't immediately fathom, almost embarra.s.sed.
”Is there something you should be telling me? Maybe something about what exactly it is that draws me here?”
”I ... I'm sorry,” he murmured.
”What for?” There was an uncomfortable churning in her stomach. She felt a sense of premonition-almost as if she knew what he was going to say, or that she wasn't going to like it very much.
”The queen is using something I gave her. Or rather she is making Lla.s.sar use it-to create talismans to bind your magic to the Iceni to aid us in our troubles.”
”What?” Beneath a building sense of dread, Clare was utterly confused. ”Bind me how? Connal-I have no idea what you're talking about. But I do know you're scaring me.”
”I didn't mean for her to do it and it is my fault because I told her of you. I suppose I just wanted to prove to her that I was worthy. That I had power to help my people. I gave her a cloth-one with your blood on it. From when I cut you.”
”My ...” At the mere mention of her blood, Clare felt faint. ”You gave my blood to Boudicca?”
”You are a creature of powerful magic, Clare,” he said as if explaining to a small child. ”And the need of the Iceni is great. We need all the magic we can get to call the G.o.ddess to protect and guide us.”
The G.o.ddess. Clare understood now. Boudicca had ”dedicated” her to Andrasta just as Connal had been. The queen had made Lla.s.sar cast a spell with Clare's blood. A spell that somehow ensured that, two thousand years later, the objects she had enchanted would call to Clare. Just as Comorra's raven brooch had when Clare herself had accidentally bled on it.
Clare almost blew out a frontal lobe trying to figure out which had come first-her s.h.i.+mmering or Boudicca's enabling her to s.h.i.+mmer. Chicken ... egg ... chicken ... egg ...
What did it matter? It was done and there wasn't anything she could do to turn that particular clock back. Her own existence hurtled on in a linear fas.h.i.+on no matter how profoundly she screwed up reality all around her. And it wasn't Connal's fault. It was hers.
”Blood magic,” Clare murmured.
”Blood ...” The raven sitting on the branch above her head seemed to answer back.
Clare closed her eyes-and let the s.h.i.+mmering take her away from Connal and the faraway sounds of Boudicca's war.
20.
”Why is there blue stuff on your face?”
Clare took a deep breath and counted to ten before she opened her eyes. ”I was partying with Smurfs. I wanted to fit in.”
”Sounds like fun. Did I call you back too soon?”
”No!” Clare struggled to sit up. Her muscles screamed at her-it felt as if she'd just run a marathon. ”Talk about dawdling-I thought you were never going to call me back!”