Chapter 638 - I No Longer Have A Heart (1/2)
Translator: Nyoi-Bo Studio Editor: Nyoi-Bo Studio
“Here.” Li Qianxue pointed to the location of her heart. Her voice was very soft, and there was absolute determination in it. “It used to be hot, and it used to be warm. But now it’s cold, dead, broken, and there’s nothing left.”
“All of this is because of you, Su Chenghui.”
“So don’t think about trying to move me, don’t think about asking me to forgive you, or give you a chance to start over, because I no longer have a heart.”
Su Chenghui was speechless. He lowered his head. The part of his forehead covered by his hair blocked his eyes. His expression couldn’t be seen.
His body was extremely stiff. He maintained his half-squatting posture and didn’t move. Only his tightly clenched fists revealed some of his emotions.
Li Qianxue didn’t look at him. Some things were over after the ship has sailed. She didn’t want to say it at first.
She was proud. She once let go of her pride in front of Su Chenghui. She made herself humble and ingratiated. She once let go of all her dignity to love Su Chenghui.
She loved him for 26 years. She had no individuality, no dignity, nor any bottom line.
That wasn’t her, the real Li Qianxue. Now, she refused to recall it anymore. She wanted to be herself again. That arrogant, high and mighty Li Qianxue.
Forget it. Forget it. She still lost control in the end. She wouldn’t admit that Su Chenghui had the ability to make her lose control.
She hoped that this was the last time. She wouldn’t do it again in the future.
What happened today was really because she had drunk a little wine, so she couldn’t control herself. She admitted that she had resentment in her heart, and it was a considerable amount of resentment.
She really hated Su Chenghui, not only because he had swapped Su Qingsang and Su Peizhen’s identities, but also because he didn’t love her.
What she hated the most was that he used her love to hurt her unscrupulously. He used her love for him as a weapon to hurt her.
No one’s earnest feelings would be able to endure continuous disappointment and torment.
Those years had been too difficult and painful for her. She didn’t want to be like that anymore.
She took a deep breath and calmed herself down. She picked up her bag and left.
She asked Su Qingsang to arrange a car to send her home. She would rather go back to Huo Jinyao’s apartment and spend time with Su Qingsang, just the two of them. She didn’t want to see Su Chenghui’s hypocritically affectionate face here.
The door opened and closed. Su Chenghui lost his strength and sat on the carpet.
He didn’t lose his memory. He also remembered what Li Qianxue remembered.
He knew everything that he had said and done.
Li Qianxue’s words only made him understand once again. If he really wanted Li Qianxue to forgive him, it would be a goal that would be difficult to achieve no matter how hard he worked.
Or perhaps he would never be able to make Li Qianxue forgive him in this lifetime.
His eyes were a little sour and a little bitter. Su Chenghui lowered his head and covered his eyes tightly. Regret and reluctance over parting with her, that sour feeling was from the bottom of his heart.
He knew that Li Qianxue wouldn’t forgive him so easily. But what should he do? He really didn’t want to let go.
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Li Qianxue didn’t sleep well this night. Perhaps it was because she had been drinking, or perhaps it was because of other reasons. She dreamed for the entire night.
The dreams that came one after another made her uncomfortable, and she woke up at six o’clock.
After waking up, Li Qianxue couldn’t fall asleep anymore. After thinking for a while, she went to the kitchen.
At the moment, taking care of her daughter was much more important to her than being entangled with Su Chenghui.
Standing in front of the fridge, Li Qianxue stared at the food in the fridge in a daze for a moment.
The last time she cooked was more than 20 years ago. At that time, she believed what the books said. In order to capture a man’s heart, she had to capture that man’s stomach first.
Therefore, she specifically bought a lot of recipes to study, from a variety of cuisines to healthy soup.
At that time, she spent a lot of effort on cooking. Unfortunately, perhaps due to her limited talent, her cooking could only be described as terrible.
No matter how simple the cooking was, or how home-cooked the dishes were, they could be ruined by her cooking.
After continuously trying, and her hands were scalded with several blisters, she finally managed to cook something that was presentable.
She happily served it to Su Chenghui, but he didn’t eat it at all and even mocked her. He said —
Li Qianxue snapped out of her thoughts. She had said yesterday that she shouldn’t think about it, but she was still thinking about it now .
She shook her head and threw all those messy thoughts to the back of her mind.
What she needed to think about now was how to successfully cook breakfast?
Should she fry an egg and make an egg sandwich? That shouldn’t be too difficult, right?
All the ingredients were there. Ever since Su Qingsang became pregnant, so she could be able to eat anything at any time, a variety of ingredients were all stored in the refrigerator at home.
Li Qianxue first looked up the recipe on the internet, then found all the ingredients.
Following the instructions on the recipe, she began to fry the eggs first.
When Su Qingsang came out of the room, she smelled the burnt scent in the air.
Since it was the mid-autumn festival yesterday, she had given Auntie Yu the day off. Auntie Yu wouldn’t be coming over today. Could it be that Huo Jinyao was cooking?
When she saw Li Qianxue cooking eggs at the counter, Su Qingsang felt as if her eyeballs were about to pop out.
“Mom?”
“Qingsang?”
Li Qianxue was momentarily embarrassed. She didn’t expect her culinary skills to be so terrible. It was just frying an egg, and the steps on the internet were so simple.
But —
Looking at the black eggs in the trash can, she felt guilty.
“Mom, are you making breakfast?”
Li Qianxue was even more embarrassed. “I wanted to make you an egg sandwich.”
Su Qingsang looked at her, and her heart felt like it was pricked by a needle. It didn’t hurt, but it made her feel a little aguished
Who was Li Qianxue? She was actually cooking for her?
She dared to bet that in the past few decades, Li Qianxue had never even cooked for herself. But now, she wanted to make a sandwich for her.
“Mom, let me do it.”
Su Qingsang calmly put away the emotions on her face. She took a few steps forward and stood in front of the counter.
“No, let’s go out and eat. You’re pregnant, how can I let you cook?”
“It’s okay.” Su Qingsang smelled the obvious burning scent that couldn’t be concealed by the range hood.
“Mom, stand outside a little. Otherwise, the oil and smoke will be too strong later.”
“No, you should rest. I’m so stupid. I can’t even cook.”
“Mom, how could you be stupid? In my heart, you’re the smartest.”
Su Qingsang smiled at Li Qianxue, washed the bottom of the pot that was already black, then took out the eggs again.
“Mom, why don’t you go outside and rest?”
“It’s okay, I’ll stand here and look at you.” Li Qianxue looked at Su Qingsang’s slightly bulging stomach. “I keep feeling that we should go out and eat.”
“No need. I’m not that fragile.”
Su Qingsang turned on the fire and poured oil into it. “Haven’t you heard? People in the past were still working in the fields a few days before giving birth.”
Although she had never given birth, as a gynecologist, she had heard too much in the hospital.
Many mothers-in-law or mothers liked to tell their daughters-in-law how hard they had worked in the past and how happy they were now when their daughters-in-law gave birth.
“That was in the past, and now is the present.”
Li Qianxue watched Su Qingsang skillfully lay the egg into the pot. It was the same process, but her movements were smoother than hers.
“Mom, when you fry eggs, don’t overheat it. Just turn the heat to medium. Fry this side first until the bottom is golden. When it’s almost done, turn it over. It won’t take long. Once the egg is old, it won’t taste good.”
As she spoke, Su Qingsang had already finished frying the egg.
She scooped it out and continued to cook the second one. At the same time, she turned around and put toast slices into the toaster.
“This is cooked, right?”
“Yes.” Su Qingsang nodded. “But if it’s toasted, it will taste better later. I like to eat it that way.”
As Su Qingsang spoke, she turned back and continued to fry the second egg. It just happened to turn over. Li Qianxue blinked her eyes.
“Qingsang, you’re really amazing.”
“This really isn’t that amazing.” Su Qingsang smiled. She was a little embarrassed by Li Qianxue’s exaggerated praise. “It’s just the simplest way.”
“But I don’t even know the simplest way.”
“But Mom, you know how to make money.” As Su Qingsang spoke, she had already finished frying the second egg.
She chatted with Li Qianxue while her hands moved non-stop.
“Look, the Li Corporation is so big and there are so many things to do, but you still do everything so well. If it were me, I definitely wouldn’t be able to do it.”
“That’s because you didn’t learn. If you learned, you would also know.”
“Not necessarily. Mom, don’t think too highly of me. I really don’t have that kind of talent.”
Su Qingsang finished making all three sandwiches. Then, she cut the first one into four pieces and laid them out.
“Okay, another glass of milk. Done.”
“Try it.”
Li Qianxue sat down, took a bite, and nodded heavily.
“It’s delicious. Qingsang, your cooking is really good.”
“You’re flattering me.”
Su Qingsang sat down as well. Huo Jinyao came back just as she took a bite.
He was used to running in the morning every day. He didn’t go during the period when Su Qingsang had the most severe morning sickness. Recently, Su Qingsang had become lethargic again, and no longer had morning sickness, so he resumed running in the morning.
He held the breakfast he had just bought in his hand.
He looked at Su Qingsang when he saw the sandwiches on the table. “Didn’t I say that I would buy breakfast today? Why did you do it yourself? Don’t you think it’s too smoky?”