54 A place I never thought I would go 2 (1/2)

Her lack of sleep put aside, she was exhausted not only physically because of all the struggles she had to face in New York and Boston, but also psychologically because of all the negative thoughts that she couldn't totally repress.

Although Lazar seemed much less affected by fatigue than her and that she could admit that he was currently stronger than she was mentally, she couldn't believe that he was in full possession of his abilities after all the events of the day.

Not to mention the previous days which must have been more difficult for him than her because of his injury and the loss of his adoptive mother.

The ambush, his evolution, that was enough for today, they both had to go to sleep now, ”Don't act like a moron, it doesn't suit you. Whatever you have in mind, that can wait until tomorrow.” She told him bluntly to make him come to his senses.

Before saying this, she had remembered the moment she thought she would rely on Lazar to make all the important choices. Once again she was breaking the rule she had set for herself but once again she couldn't help it.

The first time it happened was yesterday when she made the impulsive decision to fight with the Alpha, but this time, it was different. She was going against Lazar for a reason that she found even more selfish than the previous one.

The problem for her wasn't that she was asking him to give up what he had in mind, deep down she knew it was the right thing to do. The problem was the reason why she was asking him to do it; she was afraid for him.

Not only afraid that his death would ruin her projects as before, even if there was still some of that, but sincerely fearing for his sake.

Admittedly, until recently, although she had some affection for Lazar, she had seen him as a tool to serve her interests above all else.

'When did it change?' She wondered anxiously, 'I can't get attached to him, I must only think of her...'

Looking back, the answer to this question seemed quite clear.

She had felt it more distinctly than Lazar when it had happened but this phenomenon was so unnatural that she didn't really knew what to think about it when it happened.

Right after Lazar got his class, a bond had formed between her and him, when she saw the bonus of statistics that the system had given her, she thought it was just that, but now she finally understood that it was a much deeper bond than that.

At first, she felt anger towards the Horsemen thinking that this bond was used to manipulate her feelings so that she and Lazar would get along more easily, but upon closer reflection she realized that her feelings weren't false or forced and that the bond was of a different nature.