Chapter 42 (1/2)

Chapter 42

“But if you don’t let go … the eggs will be burnt. Aren’t you hungry?”

“Of course I am. But it’s not eggs that I’m hungry for …”  His lips were roaming all over her ear.

“Don’t.” She turned her face away.

Cheng Zheng mumbled confused “Why not? Do you … still not want me?”

Yun Jin turned off the stove before turning to face him. “If I said I didn’t, I would be lying. I’m only human. But honestly Cheng Zheng, if all you want is a night of pa.s.sion, that I can give you. If we could bridge our differences, we wouldn’t have come to this.”

“I’m not some lecherous person. I’m only like this because it’s you. Why don’t you understand?” Cheng Zheng furrowed his brow.

Yun Jin smiled “Don’t forget, it’s been four years. We are no longer the same people we once were. At the very least, there’s also Zheng Xiao Tong.”

Cheng Zheng grew quiet. Just as Yun Jin thought he would never reply, he said “Yun Jin. I’m also only human. There will come a day when I’m tired too. All along, I thought I would never be able to hold you like this again. Xiao Tong … she has been a faithful companion.”

“All the more reason why you shouldn’t be like this isn’t it?”

“Maybe you won’t believe the sort of person Xiao Tong is. Many people think she’s naive. True, she is very innocent and is truly kind. That day, she found me and told me she met you at the temple. Only then did I discover she knew who you were all along. Even then, she encouraged me to go after you. Can you believe this Su Yun Jin? A person as selfish, difficult, cold-hearted and stubborn as you, can you accept that such kind people exist? … As compared to you, she is an angel.”

When  he saw that he had successfully elicited a downcast expression from Yun Jin, he laughed at the absurdity of it all “But I just can’t seem to love that angel.”

Yun Jin bowed her head silently.

Cheng Zheng gently lifted her chin “Don’t talk to me about guilt. After all, love is never a fair game. I admit I’ve let her down but if I were to continue being with her, I would also be failing her. I hate dragging my feet over such stuff. If one person has to be disappointed, then it has to be her because I simply can’t let you go. Tell me, aren’t we both equally selfish?”

Yun Jin removed his hand from her chin which he then used to envelope her and pull her towards him.

“What else do you have to say? How long more do you want to torture me?”

“Don’t be like this.” Yun Jin struggled to create some distance between them.

“I’ll let go only if you tell me you don’t love me. Say it Su Yun Jin. Look me in the eye and tell me you don’t love me …”

Just as Yun Jin opened her mouth to reply, he lunged forward to kiss her. His l.u.s.t ignited, he skilfully tore of her clothes before undoing his own. Then, she spotted it. The sight of the unmistakable aquamarine stabbed her in the heart.

“So it’s been with you.”

Cheng Zheng grabbed her hands and placed one on the pendent and the other on his chest “You said you would never lose it! You promised!”

Yun Jin clutched the pendent tightly as she closed her eyes and wept.

The two of them moved from the kitchen to the bedroom. Cheng Zheng’s every move took her breath away. He had once thought this scene could only be relived in his dreams. Now, his suppressed desires finally had a satisfactory outlet.

“Tell me if you love me or not. Say it! Say it … I want you to tell me personally …”

Eventually he sighed “Actually you do love me …”