Part 14 (1/2)
In this one sentence she tagged my forest work as being valueless. Had I been the boy who rode through the May suns.h.i.+ne frantically to announce his poverty, I might have accepted her verdict as a just sentence. Now there was a calculating light in her dark blue eyes that put me on my mettle.
She was throwing down a red ax.
”I am self-dependent,” I said. ”I never was that in Williamsburg. I have risked much. Before crossing the mountains, I did not dare risk even your displeasure. I have done things that men on the frontier think well of.
When you knew me back East I only succeeded in making a fool of myself.
The carrying of despatches between Fort Pitt and Botetourt County is considered to be rather important.”
”But, please mercy, there's more important things for young men to do than these you've mentioned,” she softly rebuked.
”If the work of surveying lands for homes and settlements, if the scouting of wild country to protect settlements already established, if keeping a line of communication open between the Ohio and the James are not important tasks, then tell me what are?” I demanded.
She was displeased at my show of heat.
”There's no call for your defending to me your work over the mountains,”
she coldly reminded. ”As an old friend I was interested in you.”
”But tell me what you would consider to have been more important work,” I persisted. ”I honestly believed I was working into your good opinion. I believed that once you knew how seriously I was taking life, you would be glad of me.”
”Poor Basdel,” she soothed. ”I mustn't scold you.”
”Pitying me is worse,” I corrected. ”If you can't understand a man doing a man's work at least withhold your sympathy. I am proud of the work I have done.”
This ended her softer mood.
”You do right to think well of your work,” she sweetly agreed. ”But there are men who also take pride in being leaders of affairs, of holding office and the like.”
”And going into trade,” I was rash enough to suggest.
With a stare that strongly reminded me of her father she slowly said:
”In trade? Why not? Trade is most honorable. The world is built up on trade. Men in trade usually have means. They have comfortable homes. They can give advantages to those dependent upon them. Trade? Why, the average woman would prefer a trader to the wanderer, who owns only his rifle and what game he shoots.”
”Patsy, that is downright savagery,” I warmly accused. ”Come, be your old self. We used to be mighty good friends three years ago. Be honest with me. Didn't you like me back in Williamsburg?”
The pink of her cheeks deepened, but she quietly countered:
”Why, Basdel, I like you now. If I didn't I never would bother to speak plainly to you.”
Three years' picture-painting was turning out to be dream-stuff. I tried to tell myself I was foolish to love one so much like Ericus Dale; but the lure was there and I could no more resist it than a bear can keep away from a honey-tree.
She had shown herself to be contemptuous in reviewing the little I had done. She was blind to the glory of to-morrow and more than filled with absurd crotchets, and yet there was but one woman in America who could make my heart run away from control. If it couldn't be Patsy Dale it could be no one.
”Back in Williamsburg, before I made such a mess of my affairs, you knew I loved you.”
”We were children--almost.”
”But I've felt the same about you these three years. I've looked ahead to seeing you. I've--well, Patsy, you can guess how I feel. Do I carry any hope with me when I go back to the forest?”
The color faded from her face and her eyes were almost wistful as she met my gaze unflinchingly, and gently asked:
”Basdel, is it fair for a man going back to the forest to carry hope with him? The man goes once and is gone three years. What if he goes a second time and is gone another three years? And then what if he comes back, rifle in hand, and that's all? What has he to offer her? A home in the wilderness? But what if she has always lived in town and isn't used to that sort of life?”