Part 28 (1/2)
”Since Mom died,” Addie finished quietly. She took a deep breath. ”Darla's agreed to work my s.h.i.+fts. Delilah, it's going to be the same old routine for you, except a new face is going to be handing you tickets. And Daddy, all you have to do is to take general responsibility.”
Roy looked into his lap. ”That's not my strong point, Addie.”
”Do you think I don't know that? Do you think I wouldn't be asking if this didn't mean so much to me? All these years I've watched you sneak out to drink, and I pretended I didn't see. All the times I've understood that sometimes a person needs to do something, and the h.e.l.l with the consequences ... why can't you grant me the same privilege?”
Her father leaned forward, covering Addie's hand with his own. ”Why are you doing this to yourself? When something bad happens, why do you have to pick at it until it bleeds all over again?”
”Because!” Addie cried. ”What if he didn't do it?”
”And what if Chloe hadn't really died? And what if your mom walked right through those swinging doors?” Roy sighed. ”You're not going because you want to prove to yourself he's guilty; a court is gonna do that soon enough. You're going because you don't want to believe the truth that's right in front of you.”
”You don't even know where to start looking,” Delilah added.
”I'll figure it out.”
”And if you don't find what you're looking for?”
At Roy's question, Addie looked up. ”Then all I've lost is time.”
It wasn't true, and all of them knew it. But neither Roy nor Delilah, nor even Addie, wanted to admit that after a certain point, a heart with so many stress fractures would never be anything but broken.
Jordan stood in front of the bathroom mirror with a towel wrapped around his waist and sc.r.a.ped the razor over his beard stubble. Each stroke cleared a line through the shaving foam, like a snowplow. It made him think of Jack, who had been showered and shaved-thank the good Lord-when he'd summoned Jordan in the middle of the night to talk about twig crucifixes or whatever the h.e.l.l was hanging from the trees.
He tapped the razor against the edge of the sink and rinsed the blade before lifting it to his jaw again. He could always go with a variation of the infamous Twinkie defense, which had acquitted a murderer by suggesting he was on a sugar high. Or he could imply that physical impairment wasn't the only side effect of liquor ... that psychologically, one's thoughts were disabled, too. Maybe he could even find a crackpot shrink to say that drinking caused dissociation, or some other nifty catchword that excused Jack of being aware of his actions at the time he committed them. It was a cousin to the insanity defense ... not guilty by reason of inebriation.
”Dad?”
As Thomas opened the door, Jordan jumped a foot, lost in his own thoughts. The razor nicked his cheek, and blood began to run freely down his jaw and neck. ”G.o.dd.a.m.n, Thomas! Can't you knock?”
”Jeez. I only wanted to borrow the shaving cream,” he said. He squinted in the mirror at his father's face. ”Better do something about that,” he advised, and closed the door behind him.
Jordan swore and splashed water onto his cheeks and jaw. The shaving cream burned where it seeped into the cut. He patted his face dry with a towel and looked up.
It was one long, straight, thin cut, carved down the center of his right cheek.
”Jesus,” he mused aloud. ”I look like St. Bride.”
He blotted toilet paper against it, until it stopped bleeding, then wiped up around the sink and started out of the bathroom to get dressed. A moment later, he found himself in front of the mirror again, staring more carefully at his cheek.
Gillian Duncan stated that she'd scratched Jack in an effort to get him away from her. Charlie Saxton had photographed the corresponding sc.r.a.pe on Jack's cheek when he was being booked; it was in the file. But a man who had been scratched by a girl fighting off a rape would have four or five parallel marks-the scars of several fingernails, where they'd connected with his skin.
And Jack didn't.
May 2000 Salem Falls, New Hamps.h.i.+re Jack and Gill went up the hill To fetch a pail of water.
Jack poked Gill just for the thrill Of nailing Duncan's daughter.
Charlie crumpled the handwritten ode that had been left taped to his computer terminal. ”Not funny,” he yelled in the general vicinity of the rest of the precinct, then plastered a smile to his face as the first of his three interviewees entered the building, clutching her father's arm.
”Ed,” Charlie said, nodding. ”And Chelsea. Good to see you again.”
He led them to the small conference room at the station, which in his opinion was a slight cut above the interrogation room. These girls were nervous enough already to be party to an investigation; he didn't need to make them any more jittery. Holding the door open, Charlie let Ed and his daughter pa.s.s inside.
”You understand why it's important for me to take your statement?” Charlie asked, as soon as they all were seated.
Chelsea nodded, her blue eyes wide as pools. ”I'll do anything to help Gilly.”
”That's good. Now, I'm just going to tape our talk here today, so that the prosecutor gets a chance to hear what a loyal friend you are, too.”
”Is that really necessary?” Ed Abrams asked.
”Yeah, Ed, I'm afraid it is.” Charlie turned to Chelsea again, then started the microca.s.sette recorder. ”Can you tell me where you went that night, Chelsea?”
She glanced sideways at her father. ”We were just getting cabin fever, you know?”
”Where did you go?” Charlie asked.
”We met at the old cemetery on the edge of town, at eleven P.M P.M. Meg and Gilly came together; Whit and me were waiting when they got there. Then we all went up that little path that goes into the woods behind it.”
”What were you going to do?”
”Just talk, girl stuff. And build a fire, so we'd have, like, some light.” Her head snapped up. ”Just a tiny fire, not the kind you need a permit for or anything.”
”I understand. How long were you there?”
”I guess about two hours. We were getting ready to go when ... Jack St. Bride showed up.”
”You knew who he was?”
”Yeah.” Chelsea brushed her hair away from her face. ”He worked at the diner.”
”Had he talked to you before that night?”
She nodded. ”It was ... kind of creepy. I mean, he was a grown man, and he was always trying to make jokes with us and stuff. Like he wanted us to think he was cool.”
”What did he look like?”
Chelsea sat up straighter in her chair. ”He was wearing a yellow s.h.i.+rt and jeans, and he looked like he'd been in a fight. His eye, it was all bruised and swollen.” She wrinkled her nose. ”And he smelled like he had been swimming in whiskey.”
”Were there any cuts on his face?”
”Not that I remember.”
”How did you feel?”
”G.o.d,” Chelsea breathed, ”I was so scared. I mean, he was the reason we were all supposed to be at home that night.”
”Did he seem angry? Upset?”