Part 37 (1/2)
There was but the s.p.a.ce of five feet between them. How he kept from bounding to her side and clasping her in his arms he never knew; he was in a daze of delight. So certain of her love was he now that, through some inexplicable impulse, he closed his eyes again and waited to hear more of the delicious confession.
”Then we shall leave the prettiest land in the world, a land where show and pomp are not to be found, where nature reigns without the touch of sham, and go back to a world where all is deceit, mockery, display. I love everything on this island,” she cried ecstatically. He said nothing, so she continued: ”I may be an exile forever, but I feel richer instead of poorer away off here in this unknown paradise. How glorious it is to be one's self absolutely, at all times and in all places, without a thought of what the world may say. Here I am free, I am a part of nature.”
”Do you think you know yourself fully?” he asked as quietly as he could.
”Know myself?” she laughed. ”Like a book.”
”Could you love this island if you were here alone?”
”Well, I--suppose--not,” she said, calculatively. ”It would not be the same, you know.”
”Don't you know why you feel as you do about this G.o.d-forsaken land, Tennys Huntingford?” he demanded, suddenly drawing very near to her, his burning eyes bent upon hers. ”Don't you know why you are happy here?”
She was confused and disturbed by his manner. That same peculiar flutter of the heart she had felt weeks ago on the little knoll attacked her sharply.
”I--I--I'm sure--I am happy just because I am, I dare say,” she faltered, conscious of an imperative inclination to lower her eyes, but strangely unable to do so.
”You love this island because you love me,” he whispered in her ear.
”No, no! It is not that! Please don't be foolish again, Hugh. You will make me very unhappy.”
”But you do love me. You love me, and you do not know it,” he said, thrilled with exultation. She looked at him wonderingly, a half scornful, half dubious smile flitting over her face.
”I will try to be patient with you. Don't you think I know my own mind?”
she asked.
”No; you do not,” he said vigorously. ”Let me ask you a few questions, and I beg of you, for your own sake and mine, to answer them without equivocation. I'll prove to you that you love me.”
”Who is to be the judge?” she asked merrily. She trembled and turned cold as he took her hand in his and--she was not merry.
”First, is there another man in the world that you would rather have here? Answer, dear.” The blood mounted to her cheek at the term of endearment.
”Not one,” she answered firmly, trying to smile.
”Have you never thought--be honest, now--that you don't want to leave the island because it would mean our separation?”
”Yes, but--but it would be the same with anybody else if I cared for him,” she exclaimed quickly.
”But there is no one else, is there?” She looked at him helplessly.
”Answer!”
”Oh, Hugh, I--it would not be right for me to encourage you by answering that. Please let us go back to the village,” she pleaded.
”Well, I know there is no one else. Tell me that you don't want to leave me because we should drift apart in the big world,” he persisted.
”I had thought of that,” she said so low that he could barely hear.
”You have prayed that Grace may be alive. What would it mean to you if she should be alive and we should be reunited?”
”I--I don't know,” she muttered blankly.